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Govern

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I jumped out of bed Tuesday morning. Holy Spirit was mid-sentence explaining something to me and I jumped up and started frantically digging through my side table. I knew it was there… I knew it was hidden somewhere deep within the pages of a very thick 3-inch binder I’ve stored all of my Cultivate Life notes in over the past 12 years. I searched and searched, and then… There it was! A picture-graph I created in a 2011 Word Document based on a revelation I had on the court system of Heaven!

After finding it, I very enthusiastically sat back down on my bed so Holy Spirit could finish what He was saying. He said, “Press into the courts of Heaven. Absorb it! Learn everything you can! Apply it! Take this week to apply all of it… See Heaven from My perspective.”

Now before I go any further, I want you to know that I whole-heartily embraced the responsibility I wrote about last week. Actually… The embrace is what led me to this moment… This moment where I can see Heaven and our divine positioning with so much clarity.

You see the foundational truth about us is that we are sons and daughters of God. Trust, faith and intimacy are built upon our ability to have a very vulnerable and deep relationship with the Godhead… One where we are refined so that we can develop, mature and grow into all that He’s created us to be.

But then there is another role we are to fulfill… Kingship! We are royalty that is destined to govern over the earth from the spirit realm as we rule and reign over the darkness that has infiltrated our world. And when I say “kingship” I don’t in any way mean the standard by which our culture calls each other “kings and queens” for sport.

Being spiritually royal means we MUST first develop into mature sons and daughters so that we can embrace our royal duties. Then we are tasked with exceedingly crucial responsibilities! Our first responsibility is to see the legality of Heaven… To see that governing is a process of law. A process of law in Heaven we are to systematically and strategically work with in our daily lifestyle to move forward the plans, purposes and processes of the Kingdom of God.

You see I am expressing this because I have been asking Holy Spirit for over a year now to increase my understanding of spiritual government. I have been seeking His heart on a more effective and efficient way to rule and reign over darkness, and He has been very faithful in providing answers and solutions. However, the paradigm I’ve recently encountered is already revolutionizing my realm and the realms surrounding me. It’s actually revolutionizing them in such a way that I am more confident than ever of who we are and how we’ve been designed to work from Heaven down into the earth.

And the confidence I have has come from the clarity found within His words. He said, “If you truly want to rule and reign above the darkness, you must keep pursuing a higher way. You must view and submit your requests before the court of Heaven. Amanda, you know the kingdom of darkness is legalistic. You’ve experienced the legalism and perfection of the courts of heaven in deliverance sessions your entire life! Do you think My legal system is only limited to deliverance? Do you think it only pertains to situations where humanity needs freedom from powers, principalities and demonic oppression? You are to enter my courts for everything. You are to come humbly before me as a daughter in My Kingdom… A daughter who has right standing, a birthright of royalty and divine dominion and authority. Boldly come before Me and address the darkness. Boldly come before me and present the accusations. Come before Me and present the injustice in your nation. You must come before Me as I am… I am King. I am Judge. And I must give a verdict of mercy, healing and freedom because grace is law! You want to see real change in the Heavens and the Earth? Seek My heart as your Father. Seek My will for solutions. Then build from that intimate communication between daughter and father… And come before me as royalty with royal authority. Come before me as a Queen presenting injustices… Like Esther before the King and the court, and I… I as Judge, will bring a righteous and just verdict into what you’ve presented. And then you, you will see My Kingdom begin to expand in the Heavens and on Earth! But you must come. You must come as often as needed. You must incorporate this into your lifestyle. For it will very much impact your life, Cultivate Life and the realms, dimensions and timelines presented before Me.” 🌱

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The Responsibility

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My goal as a writer for the past 8-10 years has always been centered around having the vulnerability to share the inner workings of myself and my relationship with God. To give a first-hand, in the moment account of a cultivated life. My heart is always aiming to demonstrate how Holy Spirit is working to refine and restore parts of me, as He pushes me towards deeper levels of development, maturity and growth.

Some days (like today) I struggle. I struggle with the inner cultivation of myself and how I should communicate it properly. 

Which is why embellishing on my current reality feels more challenging than usual. So please, try to follow what I’m expressing.

The perseverance it’s taken to reach today hasn’t been a cake-walk. The spiritual and mental determination to keep moving forward with the plans of God has felt, at times, utterly impossible from my soul’s perspective. People often say to me, “You’re so strong to keep going… To stay so committed to following Holy Spirit with such a submissive heart.” And while it’s true, it does require strength… None of the strength I’m using belongs to me. I’ve actually asked God for it because I know I need His power, strength and grace to empower all of me: spirit, soul, heart and body. Without eternal reliance and relationship with Him, I am weak and broken. 

Right now, I am learning that perseverance is much more challenging when you’re in a place of persevering (in several areas: personally, and in business), only for God to come and say, “Amanda, here is the next step. Except for this step is less of a step and more of a paradigm shifting way of operating in My kingdom. It will actually make the steps you’re taking seem more effortless, but you must apply it.”

Of course, a more effortless route is so appealing, but then I sit back and consider the responsibility and the serious learning curve I’ll need to submit to in order for this to become a component of my lifestyle. 

And that… That is my hang up… The responsibility.

But you know… I cannot become overwhelmed by the thought of the responsibility. I cannot become consumed with the hard work and training that will have to take place in order for this to become a facet of my lifestyle. I cannot embrace the lies I hear about how difficult this will be because then I will empower the liar. And I certainly cannot embrace fear, doubt or unbelief in any way because then I will begin to lose my strength and authority to cultivate this reality. 

And I don’t know if I am making complete sense, but my soul keeps saying, “If you obey God, then this path you’ve been paving and persevering down is going to be absolute hell! It’s going to be so heavy and exhausting to blaze forward!” 

However, God’s given the instruction. And He’s not asking for my opinion about it. No, He wants my complete submission and obedience to the instruction no matter how my soul feels about it. Which means, even if I don’t love the idea of another responsibility, I became responsible the moment He gave me the instruction. So, I must step forward and simply obey. He has and He will continue to supply the power, strength and grace needed for the responsibility at hand. 🌱

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Locked Out!

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Remember the violent spiritual behavior I shared with you last week? Remember how I said Holy Spirit said, “Do not buy what he is selling with your own free-will. Stand firm. Stand your ground. You are on holy ground. Do not step into torment or accept it”?

Okay, well since then the torment and warfare have significantly increased. At times, it’s constant, and I seem to be encountering it from all different angles. Mentally and emotionally, I keep encountering seeds of fear, doubt and unbelief. It’s as if they’ve been strategically sprinkled along the path I’m walking down as a giant distraction from the goal I am pursuing with Holy Spirit. Physically… Physically, I keep encountering headaches, chest pains, nausea, random pain that moves all over my body and does not make any sense. And then of course there are the random bruises. (Remember, we are in a spiritual war first and foremost. And the spiritual very much leaks into the tangible. Also, my body is completely healthy. I am not in any way physically sick, so please do not misinterpret what I am saying).

And while all of this feels like a lot, then I find myself encountering my once beloved past. And the past, which God has restored, redeemed and refined, really tries it’s best to weave itself into the bedrock of my heart. It tries to find a way to make me believe I should still feel angry, disappointed and all together completely hateful.

Now, the unfortunate reality about the torment and warfare is that I keep buying into it. On multiple occasions I’ve actually picked up the seeds of fear, doubt and unbelief and walked down the path with them some. However, they are so heavy and full of obvious evil (kind of like a horcrux from Harry Potter) that I have to completely abandon them and keep walking. I’ve actually stopped myself in the midst of a breakdown and said, “No. No, I am not buying this. God has given me a spirit of love, power and a sound mind. Not a spirit of fear, doubt and unbelief.” And then I asked my human spirit to come forward, and she almost laughed with joy when I felt her. And then she said, “Amanda, we are fine. We are on a solid path of provision, led and guided by Holy Spirit. Stop letting your soul buy into fear. You soul is to be submissive to me as I am submissive to Holy Spirit.”

So, I pulled myself together and marched forward. 

But you know what I’ve realized? The kingdom of darkness and all of its evil don’t have dominant territory over my life anymore. They’ve been losing significant power over the years as I’ve followed Holy Spirit down a path of healing, freedom and restoration through Jesus. And because they don’t have dominant territory, they are completely locked out of my heart. Actually, I keep finding myself, on multiple occasions, laughing with joy because I know I am at a threshold moment. A moment where they can try to get in and divide the work God has done in me, but they will not be successful because there’s too much life and truth coursing through the essence and frequency of my entire being. 

And I don’t know who needs to hear this, and I don’t know if anyone reading this relates, but you should stand your ground against fear, doubt and unbelief. Especially if you’ve gained freedom. Stand your ground and remind the enemy that he doesn’t have a legal right to come in anymore. He doesn’t have the authority to trespass in your life anymore. He’s been locked out! His power has dwindled down to that of seeds on the ground that he has to lay out strategically. There isn’t any more spiritual entanglement. What he’s doing is a ruse. It’s a con. A way for him to get us to quit so that we cannot move forward into the plans and purposes God has ordained for right now. 

And if you haven’t experienced spiritual freedom, I want to encourage you to seek it out. Dive deep into areas of your life that still feel oppressed. Ask God to provide you with the faith needed to stand up to the fear, doubt and unbelief you’re experiencing. And, if you feel that all of this runs deeper, never abandon the reality that the entanglement might actually run deep within the veins of your spiritual bloodline. A spiritual bloodline that can be cleansed, redeemed and restored so that you can stand firm in moments like I am in right now, reminding the darkness, “You are completely locked out!” 🌱

keep moving forward · Mind · power

Violence

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The past three days or so I’ve felt a growing sense of violence surrounding me. Like I can’t breathe because I feel an extreme measure of torment pursuing my heart and soul. And I’ve never been a depressed type, but I do feel a very sudden and extreme sense of hopelessness weighing me down.

Of course I’ve been questioning, “What the actual hell is going on? Why do I suddenly feel this way? What’s the root? Where is this coming from and how do I cut the source off and prevent another wave from coming?”

So, after literally willing myself out of bed this morning, I sat and pondered the source. And then I found it. Friday. Friday there was a clear and direct deposit in the spirit from Holy Spirit. A deposit that gave my sister and I a direct conclusion for a project we’ve been faithfully working on. And, from that point, the enemy of my soul began to enact his plan, shifting my focus from God’s deposit to his own deposit of extreme doubt, fear and hopelessness. I actually sat on the end of my bed yesterday crying because I couldn’t seem to switch off the aimed frequency causing the mental and physical torment I felt.

After gaining the source, I began to feel somewhat better so I asked Holy Spirit, “What do I do now?” He said, “Call your human spirit forward.” So, I did. And I asked her what was up. Her response, “The enemy of your soul is trying to make you quit. He would like you to focus on the tangible world around you and cause you to exist from a soulish playing field of life. He’s trying to divide your spirit and your soul, while creating confusion and torment from within.” 

After my human spirit was finished speaking, I turned back to Holy Spirit for direction. He said, “Divine alignment is happening in the spirit concerning the project. Don’t take your focus off of Me. I told you the Fall would be messy but to remain focused on Me. There’s been a new release concerning this project you are working on. The accuser is after you. If he can get you to fold, he can get the entire project to fold. Tell him no. Tell him you aren’t interested in whatever he is selling. Tell him you choose to operate with love, power and a sound mind. Not fear. Do not buy what he is selling with your own free-will. Stand firm. Stand your ground. You are on holy ground. Do not step into torment or accept it.”

And I’m sharing this because it’s vital to be reminded of the violent nature of the power we combat in the spirit. It’s essential to see that complete submission to Holy Spirit followed by consistent forward movement creates great stress and fear inside of the kingdom of darkness’s camp. And it’s extremely necessary that we pull ourselves closer to Holy Spirit, determine the root of the enemies plan, devise a scheme with Holy Spirit to fight back and then KEEP MOVING FOWARD towards the goal He’s placed in front of us.

And I know that it is challenging. We live in unprecedented times. However, we must keep our eyes focused on the path He’s placed before us, rather than the violence aiming to take us under and consume the divine culture and quality of our spiritual nature. 🌱

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Containment

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I’ve tried to write what’s on my heart so many times. I’ve deleted what I’ve said because of the fear of sounding “harsh.” But… You know what? I have to say what’s jumbling around inside.

Do you ever stop and think, “What’s in God’s heart? How does He see our world? What are His solutions? What kind of life-giving, spirit-driven solution can He provide us with in this moment of time?”

If so, do you ever get an answer? If you do get an answer, do you keep following the narrow path of that answer with more questions? And if you’re still on that path of seeking answers with questions, have the answers produced a life-giving harvest around you and those close to you?

You see I’m asking because I’ve made a commitment to seek what’s contained in His heart in all circumstances. And though it’s challenging… And though I do fail a lot… I’ve promised myself I’ll move forward with my spirit, heart and soul fixated on faithfully following through with His desires. Truly living from each unprecedented milestone to the next.

So, you can then maybe understand why my heart feels grieved when I look around and see that my generation and our culture is completely overrun with materialism, self-centeredness and the goal of becoming a mini-god of sorts.

Y’all… We are missing it. A relationship with God isn’t an “add-on” at the end of the menu. He isn’t a side dish that we consume with the rest of our meals. He’s not our meaningful thought to “feel better” for a moment. And He’s most certainly not intended to revolve around our self-centered nature. 

What happened to relationship with Him? Where did the truth that Jesus heals go? Where is our passion for seeking His glory as a solvent in all situations? Where is our devotion for and submission to following Holy Spirit’s lead, no matter how uncertain it seems? Where is our faith for believing Him for the next step no matter the sacrifice? Where is our trust in believing He will provide us with the strength necessary to carry the weight of what He’s asking us to do? 

It is grieving to see a nation filled with problems He can and will solve, if only we will let Him lead and stop intruding our soulish thoughts and emotions into His processes. 

And again, maybe I am harsh in what I’m saying; however, following Him has never been a disappointment. He has always, always provided a way. He has always provided more than enough finances to meet my every need. And He’s always given the next step, chapter and season when He knows it’s time.

And so, I’m writing this to remind you… Lay down the materialism. Let go of the self-centeredness. Give up the idea of becoming a mini-god. It’s not worth it. As enchanting and illusive as it all seems, it’s not of spiritual value. 

What’s of spiritual value can’t be added up in the tangible. It can’t be purchased with views, likes and comments. What’s of spiritual value is an eternal connection contained inside of a very real, very loving, very vulnerable and very humble God. 🌱

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Faith for the Mountain

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I love this time of the year. God’s supernatural window is open in an extraordinary way as He pulls Himself closer to us. And you know I found myself sitting with Him this morning, discussing a list of projects that lay before me, praying for a number of situations that need to come into divine alignment and also receiving some solid wisdom and gifting for forward movement.

And then… Then He said to me, “I want to give you My mountain of healing. I want to plant it in your heart. It is for you to share with others.” Then I immediately asked, “Is this mountain a seed, or is it like a potted plant, one that’s already semi-nurtured and developed, that needs to be planted on the grounds of my heart?” Then I saw what looked very similar to a tiny replica of Disney’s Magic Kingdom with roots hanging off of it. It was about the size of an engagement ring box. And He said, “It’s a plant. And I am going to plant it inside of you. You will share it with others. I will water it with My glory so it may grow.”

Hmmm… Interesting…

Now, I really don’t have the slightest clue what’s ahead. If I were to guess based on the boundaries of my soulish mind, I would say it will grow and become whatever He intends it to be. But then, I am also very aware that my human spirit’s superconscious mind and Holy Spirit can provide me with more answers than my soul can. 

So, I asked them. And I saw very clearly (but in way more details than I’m allowed to share) that His mountain of healing is going to be a cultivated journey of sorts with many highs and lows. Which does make me feel somewhat prepared, but then also causes me to embrace my reality… Which is that I’m going to have to use faith… Faith that I don’t have in this current moment will be needed to help this mountain grow.

And I believe it’s all together very exciting. It’s exciting to think, “WOW! I will have to step out into uncharted territory to watch this thing develop, mature and grow into what God intends it to be inside of me for others.”

Because what’s the point of believing in God, Jesus and the Kingdom of Heaven if we aren’t pushed to the limits in our relationships with them and the world around us? What’s the point to trusting if we aren’t perpetually thrust into a place of faith for the unseen every single day? What’s the point of saying, “Yes, I’ll submit and follow,” to only turn our attention back to the culture of the ever-evolving, illusive and enchanting “American Dream?” And as much as I enjoy the “ladder of so-called success,” what’s the point of climbing it if His heart, visions, dreams and purposes aren’t sewn into the very foundation of it all with a promise to produce a quality harvest of fruit on the other end? 🌱

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Get Up!

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Saturday, I flew home to NYC as the first outer bands of Hurricane Henri made landfall. About 15 minutes before we landed, my sister leaned over and said, “I think we’re circling the city.” I said, “How do you know?” She said, “See that dark spot? I think that’s NYC. We’ve passed it 3 times now.” No sooner had she said this when the pilot came over the intercom telling us, “Hi folks, we’ve been circling the city. It’s too dangerous to land in the storm. We will continue to circle for 10 more minutes and if we can’t land, we will go to Philadelphia to refuel, and then come back and land.”

So, true to form, I used the next several minutes to minister to the storm, reminding the Stoicheion (the physical elements) that they are created by God, that Jesus is King and that He needs them to fight for His Kingdom. 

Now, what’s interesting about Hurricane Henri is the fact that its name means: ruler of the homeland; power, ruler, powerful. 

Actually, the entire plane ride home I knew this storm was coming with such an impactful meaning. And I heard Holy Spirit repeat over and over to me, “There is a war waging in the second Heaven for your city. You must walk in the full amount of power, authority and dominion I’ve given you to rule and reign over it. You must assert yourselves as rulers of your homeland as you reign.” And so, we did. 

Now, I’m sharing this with you for many reasons. First, this story is like a multitude of other stories I could tell you if we had time to sit and talk for a while. I could explain how, on the regular, I stand before powerful giants in the spirit and watch them bend the knee at my command because I am backed by King Jesus. I could tell you of financial structures that have been dismantled because I had faith and believed what I heard Holy Spirit speak to me and then followed His lead until His job was finished. I could explain to you how I’ve seen signs and wonders of incredible proportion manifest before my eyes with no explanation but, “the goodness of God!!”

But… I think the main thing I want to communicate to you is this….

You’ve been lied to. Actually, we’ve all been lied to. We are more than this materialistic world would like us to believe. The depth of who we are exists in realms, dimensions and timelines we can’t fully perceive with our conscious minds. We are created to vibrate at a higher frequency than the dominating structures and systems of this world would like us to realize.

Which is why it truly requires faith to step out of the comfort zones of this mundane, stagnant, 3-dimensional world to be able to experience the vastness of the quantum realms and realities that surround us. 

And I don’t want to sound insensitive when I say this, but I’ve tried other gods in the past; however, the only one that has ever humbly stepped down into my world and timeline and offered me grace, peace, relationship and more love than I understand is Jesus. He is the only dude that’s been capable of saying, “I see your brokenness. I see your sickness. I see your confusion and anxiety. I see the disease and rot of your spirit, heart, soul and body. And I just want to restore all of it. I actually possess the power to do all of these things… Things you don’t know how to carry. I can carry them for you, when you surrender them to Me. And when you feel alone, My Holy Spirit, He’s always there to surround you, fellowship with you and walk with you through the trails, the hills and the deep, dark valleys of life.”

And you know, the more I’ve leaned into Him and His Kingdom over the past decade of my life, the more life I’ve actually gained. The more I’ve followed His Holy Spirit, the more realms and dimensions have opened up to me. The higher levels of faith I’ve stepped out into, the more power and authority has been entrusted to me. And the more I’ve asked for His confidence, courage and humility to be bottled up and poured out over me, the more assignments He’s given to me to stand before dark, demented and malevolent forces, while gaining so much territory for His Kingdom. 

You see I am sharing this with you because I am completely over the narrative that we don’t have any power over what is happening in our world right now. It is a lie. We do have power when we are in relationship with Christ. We actually have so much power that a hurricane can downgrade to a tropical storm before hitting land, causing way less damage than anticipated. So, if you are reading this and you have a belief system in Jesus Christ, then stop whining. Stop complaining. Stop blaming others. Stop hating others. 

And instead, get up! Get up and start cultivating a deeply rooted relationship with the godhead and your own trans-dimensional human spirit! Get up and see that your human spirit is designed to be seated in the 3rd Heaven with God and Jesus, as it looks down at the chaos below and rules and reigns over it all! Get up and start using the God-given power, dominion and authority we’ve all be entrusted with! Get up and create unity! Get up and fight back! Get up!  🌱

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Expansion

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Deep beneath the layers of my skin, I feel it… A trans-dimensional maturity and growth occurring. It’s a stretching out… A stretching out and almost bursting forth of my human spirit. You know, it almost feels like my skin is tighter and brighter because I now contain more of my human spirit, Holy Spirit and the weight of the glory of God.

Actually, if you’ve ever smoked weed and been high before then you can kind of understand what this feels like. It’s just so weightless… Almost like you’re floating. Standing taller. Standing firmer. Your soul is submitting to your human spirit, and the merry-go-round you’ve been on has slowed down to a God-inclusive pace. A pace that offers a space for His thoughts and solutions to jump on board. And your mind… Your mind is clear from worry, anxiety and fear. You’re actually able to process the world that’s spinning at a mad, chaotic pace because your level of faith and belief in the Kingdom of God has increased to tremendous heights. 

This… This is expansion. You are called higher. The standard God set within the boundaries of His limitless Kingdom becomes clearer and clearer to your soul’s mind. And the dreams He’s placed inside of your malleable heart become realer, almost tangible to the very essence or your being.

Now, you might be wondering, “Amanda, how often do you feel this?” Honestly, from season to season. You see it takes true willingness, obedience and perseverance to move into higher levels of spiritual maturity and growth. It requires a level of submissive faith that decrees and declares, “I will follow where Holy Spirit is leading me, no matter the challenge, the limbo, the frustration and the internal conflict between spirit and soul. I will follow Him from season to season, seeking each milestone He is pointing me towards.”

But, “Amanda, what’s it all for?” Honestly, I believe spiritual maturity and growth is needed for more things than we can truly fathom; however, in this moment, I believe we need it for the push back. You see we cannot and will not rule and reign over the wickedness and evil of the world without it. We cannot conquer the kingdom of darkness if our human spirits are weak, inactive and immobile. We all need to experience the stretching out and bursting forth. We all need to make room for the glory of God that desires to dwell inside of us. 

And I’m writing this because I hear Holy Spirit incessantly repeating, “It’s time for a giant push back. You are strong enough. You are equipped enough. You have a solid understanding of your God-given authority and dominion. Now, push back!” 

So, I am encouraging you to stretch out so you too can push back. 🌱

keep moving forward · Spirit

Seasonal Milestones

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It’s dark, tight and completely isolated, but not in a divisive, evil or wicked way. More so in a deeply concealed and ingeniously crafted manner.

I am confident. I am strong. I firmly believe moving forward with great courage and tremendous hope is the only way now.

And I hear Him saying, “Run with perseverance. Run hard. Do not look to the left or to the right with jealousy, pride and covetous. Do not look behind in grief, disappointment and frustration. Do not look ahead with fear, unbelief and worry. Instead, run with perseverance. It’s going to take everything I’ve deposited in the depths of you to breakthrough into the next season.”

But then I do ponder past seasons… So intricately and carefully designed, they are eternal fuel firing from the depths of my spirit, heart and soul. They are calling me higher and propelling me forward.

Actually, the past seasons of refinement, development, maturity and growth appear to be indispensable and multifaceted gifts… Gifts that have actually morphed into the faith I need to keep picking up the assignment of forward movement. 

And I’m sharing this with you because I understand how challenging it is to hear Holy Spirit’s voice and then blindly follow His very unknown, uncertain and ever-evolving ways for years without breakthrough. I understand how challenging it can feel to wonder, “How much longer until we reach the promises You hold so dear to Your heart God.” But then I am also beginning to embrace that I’ve needed each season He’s led me to and led me through in the past. Because each season, each season is a milestone. Milestones filled with intricate chaos. Milestones dashed with process and progress. Milestones that have cultivated the very faith my spirit, heart and soul need to finish this leg of the race! 🌱 #cultivatelife

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Questioning It All

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I had a vision yesterday morning. I was in a dark, spacious cave, and I saw a waterfall flowing from a tall mountain-top of black rock. The mouth of the waterfall was wide. As the water fell, it plunged into a pool at the bottom, and then began to rapidly flow into a ravine. The ravine was different from the spacious cave. It was very tube like, tight and cramped. Still dark, but elevating downward. Then, very suddenly, I saw what seemed to be an end to the darkness… A bright light!

After this played out, I heard Holy Spirit. He said, “You are in a very tight, isolated and concealed space right now. So much is happening at once. I know it doesn’t seem like it is, but it is. Trust the flow. Trust what you feel in your human spirit. Trust the direction you’re being led… Even though you don’t understand. Trust Me.”

And then He stopped talking.

Lately, it’s been extremely challenging to keep moving forward. When you walk through many difficult seasons of life, without breaking into what God’s promised, you begin to question everything. And I have been. I am questioning it all. 

You see… It’s just the insight… The ideas… The concepts He’s given me over the years… Well, I’ve held so firm to them. He revealed them to me, planted them in my heart, watered them, nurtured them, watched them develop, mature and grow… And I see the fruit. I see what His ideas, concepts and dreams have produced in my own life and the lives of those that are close to me. But then… Then I ask, “What about the rest? What about the broad scope of all You envisioned and shared with me? And, I know I lack a lot of understanding, but how much longer will You choose to keep Your work concealed? Because I don’t care about fame, fortune, followers or ‘success.’ That doesn’t move me. Honestly, I only, truly care about You. I care that multitudes see how sensational of a feeling it is to be satisfied by only You. I care to share the same measure of love with others that You have shared with me. Everyone has to know! They must know that You aren’t so much ‘cool or hip or relevant.’ Instead, You’re legitimate and virtuous in Your very nature. You’re exactly what each person needs You to be in his/her own life at any given moment because relationship with you is a lifestyle, not a pop culture phenomenon or religion.”

His response? Quiet. Very still. Actually, His stature is so still that it echoes in a very boisterous way. Which then leads me to be still. To calm my soul. To stay present, confident and very focused on exactly where He’s leading. To not be conformed to my lack of understanding, but to just keep moving forward through this very tight, isolated and concealed space in time. 🌱