Actually… WE are climbing THIS mountain in front of US.
My sister and I have climbed lots of mountains before… Separately and together. But… THIS… THIS mountain is unique because we must take all that He has deposited inside of us (separately and together), multiply it with a new deposit of His gifts and then produce a finished product.
Funny thing… Neither of us have a clue what the finished product will look like! Oh sure… We kind of know what it might feel like. And we definitely know what ideas need to be incorporated into the whole.
However… the final outcome is a mystery.
And… To be completely honest with you… I like it that way because it reveals how much trust is rooted inside of our relationships with God and with each other.
After all… “It’s not always our business to know why God has asked us to do certain things. But it is ALWAYS our business to follow.”
So… If you’re reading this and you truly believe in the Godhead… If they are really the foundation and bedrock of your life: spirit, soul and body, then you MUST FULLY FOLLOW the Holy Spirit’s lead. And… I’ve learned that He doesn’t normally give a 2-step plan, a 5-step plan or a 10-step plan. He more or less says, “Here’s the next step… Now take it.” 🌱 #cultivatelife #bridgetwinderart #windersisters
This is my body. It’s the only one I’ve been given. It’s the only vessel (that I know of) my spirit and soul will ever live inside of. And… I don’t ever intend on altering it with plastic surgery to make myself feel a false sense of confidence in my outer appearance.
You see… For years I spoiled my body. I constantly fed it things it wasn’t designed to consume because I was broken, insecure and lost. And then… For years I starved it. I didn’t feed it enough of what it needed because I was STILL broken, insecure and lost.
And though I was certain I’d figure out “how” to live in my own version of a “perfect” body… I never did.
You see I couldn’t grasp hold of true confidence in who I was until I accepted that my spirit and soul were both sick and dying and in need of a healer. They were begging for real love and in dire need of true value and worth. (The kind we won’t find down the rabbit-hole of social media or through “self-love”).
My spirit and soul (the two things that matter MORE than my body) needed God. They needed the Holy Spirit. They needed me to fully lean into the fullness of Jesus Christ and His ability to constantly make me well from the inside out.
And I don’t know where you stand with body image and health; however, I do speak from experience when saying this… Let God heal you. Allow Him to transform you into a new spiritual being. And I know Jesus can be a sensitive subject (I’ve had my own personal journey)… But just try and lean into Him and His Holy Spirit.
You see… The Godhead doesn’t need a building to operate inside of. They need something WAY simpler, a bit more complex and incredibility unique… They need us. They need our hurt, our pain and our brokenness, so that they may take it and turn it into pure love, joy and light. And then… Then once they’ve done that, they need us to continue to pursue them with a heart that ONLY craves to follow the path of a cultivated LIFE! 🌱 #cultivatelife
I don’t want to climb the mountain. I don’t want to climb the mountain.
Yes I have the strength, the endurance and the capability… But I just don’t want to climb it.
And, so… Rather than climb the mountain, I’ve been circling the bottom for weeks. I’ve been circling it with hopes that He will change His mind.
But He hasn’t. He hasn’t… And so, through all of my whining and complaining, I know I must climb THIS mountain.
I must let go of more selfishness and stubbornness in order to follow Him up.
And I don’t know if you’ve ever truly followed Him before. In today’s culture, a true follow is challenging. We have 72 billion+ reasons to get distracted and misled. However, when we’re willing to go a little bit further with Him, He does open us up to more grace… More wisdom… More peace… And more treasure hidden inside of His heart and His Kingdom alone.
Following the Holy Spirit can be a life-changing/life-altering adventure of sorts.
But…. Well, what about when He says, “no?” Why is it so challenging to repeatedly move forward when He says, “No. No. No. That’s not it. Keep moving forward. Keep focusing on Me and my ways. I know what I am doing. You must continue to trust me in EVERY area Amanda.”
And honestly… Honestly I HATE when His response doesn’t make sense at all. I hate when I can’t wrap my head around Him and His thoughts and ways. I hate when He can see ahead of me, but then won’t let me in on the design and details because it will stunt my refinement, development, maturity and growth.
But that’s true submission you know?
The ability to keep moving forward with Him, regardless of fully knowing or understanding the “why.”
And I don’t know where you are in your walk and follow with Him right now; however, I do believe following through with the “no” is just as vital as following through with the “yes.” Because, even though the “no” contradicts the souls wants, it also pulls us into a tighter, more intimate relationship with God. It shows that we will trust His ways… And then have peace within that trust no matter the outcome.
And… I don’t know about you, but who wouldn’t want to be closer to Him? 🌱 #cultivatelife
If so, then you’ll understand the constant, alienating feeling of being “wronged.”
But, what happens when the bitterness you’re experiencing is aimed at God?
You see… I’ve been asking myself this question for two weeks now because He’s called me to a higher level of obedience and trust in Him.
However, my selfish ways want things that oppose His ways. The selfish pieces of my heart keep reminding me of how unjust and unfair I believe He’s being towards me.
And… In all honesty, I’m blinded. Blinded by my self. Blinded by my will. Blinded by my desires and ways.
But… I’m also tired. I’m tired of being hostile with my best friend. I don’t like feeling like He’s wronged me when, deep down, my heart knows He’s truly good.
Actually… His goodness is the very reason I keep giving Him my will and selfish ways and desires. His goodness is what keeps leading pieces of my selfish heart to a place of repentance and peace.
And so… Well that’s why I am sharing this. To remind you, wherever you are, to stay focused on Him at all times. And to choose His will over every other thing that’s presented before you. Because He… He is ALWAYS good! 🌱 #cultivatelife
Can I ask a question?… Or more so a series of questions?
In the midst of this great awakening, are we constantly and consistently focused on the heart of God and what He’s doing? Have we set aside isolated time… Time where we can focus on the will of God and what He truly wants as we move forward?
Are we allowing Him to use us based around what He’s saying… Not around what social media is telling us to do and say?
Also… Do we hope to see more truth revealed so that deception and manipulation cannot hide anymore?
Oh! And… what about healing? Do we hope the exposure of evil, wickedness and darkness is followed by a powerful gust of healing and restoration from the Holy Spirit for our country’s soul?
And if so, are we praying His movement is holy and pure… Something that is sanctified and structured in the heart of God where love dwells?
You see I ask all of these questions because they are things I keep asking myself. I need to know if my own heart is turned towards the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. I need to remind myself that this is about His Kingdom for His glory. I need the God-head to continuously push my heart towards healing and deliverance of sickness, pain and disease of the spirit, soul and body. I need the Holy Spirit to continue to probe around inside of my heart and push me towards the fulness of life through Jesus Christ.
So… Are you focused in on His heart? 🌱#cultivatelife
For at least 7 months now, I’ve continued to hear the Lord remind me to stay focused on Him and where He’s headed with His Kingdom.
“Get above it. Stay above it. If you truly believe in Me, My Kingdom and My ways then you must constantly stay above what’s happening in the world. You must live and be and operate off of a supernatural plane of life. You must listen to ME. And… You must remain full of My Spirit alone so that He may lead and guide you.”
And I’m not going to lie… It’s very challenging to follow His instructions. It’s very, very challenging to absorb what’s happening in the world, filter through it to determine truth and then seek God’s counsel to know how to pray.
You see if we believe in Jesus Christ and have a relationship with the Holy Spirit then we are called to live above the chaos, confusion, hurt and pain of the world. We are given a position seated above every dark and evil power and principality that rules over the earth. And in this position we are asked to draw close to God… To draw close to His heart and His Spirit for answers and solutions.
Because you see when we do… When we actually focus on Him and listen to what He has to say, then HE will provide us with cutting-edge answers and solutions that break down barriers, tear down walls and bring restoration and healing to every arena of life! 🌱 #cultivatelife
“What’s in your heart Amanda?” I hear God say again.
Actually… I’ve heard Him say this to me repeatedly over the past 7 months.
And… It’s become a continuous reminder to keep my insides as empty as possible while focusing on the things of Him and nothing else.
It’s a phrase… It’s a phrase that jerks my attention… It jerks my heart’s attention to stay focused on things on high that are not of this world, time and space. To remain vigilant in protecting what enters and exits my being as a whole. To stay balanced on the inside with the constant, consistent goal of cultivating life from the inside out with Him.
Could you tell her what’s happening inside of you right now?
Could you explain to her what you believe in, who you believe in and why you believe?
Would you be able to examine your life and explain who/what placed these beliefs in your mind and why?
And what about your spirit and soul? If you opened up to truth would she find death, decay and a life that’s languishing? Or would she find a glorious, pure and flourishing life that’s capable of giving more life to those around him/her?
And… Most importantly, if truth called, would you be able to boldly say, “My beliefs drive me closer to human connection and the divine rather than farther away?”
I ask all of these questions because I believe having an honest, transparent answer to each one is vital. I also believe truth… Truth is searching for individuals that are confident enough to answer her call with a bold heart ♥️🌱 #cultivatelife
Do you wanna know what moving forward with Holy Spirit looks like for me right now?
It’s choosing to FULLY trust in everything He’s cultivated inside of me.
Yep… I feel challenged deep in my spirit to believe… To FULLY believe in the LIFE He’s helped me refine, develop, nurture, mature and grow.
And, honestly the challenge I feel feels… Well It feels large.
Actually… It’s like there’s a giant tree standing in front of me. A tree that’s blossoming and blooming fruit, flowers and shades of life and glory I never realized existed until I encountered them.
And I’m having to FULLY grasp the truth that everything I see is going on inside of me at this very moment!
And I don’t know where you are right now. My greatest hope is that you’re filled with so much life it’s flowing out of you and touching the lives of those you encounter. However, if you do feel like me, if you’re having trouble believing in what you see… Then PLEASE be encouraged to ask Holy Spirit to reveal truth to you. Please ask Him to fully reveal the LIFE He’s cultivated inside of your heart. And, if you realize there are areas that are languishing and dying, PLEASE be encouraged to ask Jesus to restore them… To restore them totally and completely 🌱 #cultivatelife