I had a dream last night and dad was in it… I had a dream last night and he was talking about Heaven.
When I woke up it made me think about the book I gave hime to read right before he was diagnosed, “Heaven is for Real.” The movie was coming to theaters and I made the comment that I had read the book… so I went to my closet and got the book for him…. told him he could read it if he wanted… he read it in one sitting.
It’s funny to think back now about that moment. He was so close to Heaven and none of us thought that was about to become a reality… I think dad did though. He knew deep down within him what was ahead… what was in store for his future.
As Christians we’re taught to be Heaven bound… Heaven drawn…. closer to Heaven today than we were yesterday….. but honestly, well sometimes I wonder why we talk about a place we will be in forever.
If Earth was given to man to have authority over and subdue, then why do we feel this constant need to get away from it and to this so called magical land of perfection? Why can’t we enjoy this thing called time for a while and just live within it?
In a way, shouldn’t time be of value to us because one day we will live in a place without it? Our experience with time will be over so quickly…. I mean years on earth are so limited today.
Plus, why can’t we enjoy what’s around us and actually cultivate a good life?
I remember being in Bible class one time… the teacher was talking about Heaven and the book of Revelation… apparently I was beaming, so she pointed it out, “look how excited Amanda is to get there and be there.” In that moment I was pretty proud of myself. First because I was called out… and second because I was supposed to be excited about Heaven…. Right?
But today, today I feel different towards all of it. Because in so many different ways I want to live my life here on Earth. I know Earth is a difficult place to live on day…. with sickness, disease, wars, terror, fear and the rest… but good things still come out of it everyday.
Life can be good and kind and wonderful if we let it. Plus, it’s supposed to be a roller coaster. How boring would it be if we kept the same pace? How much would we hate it if there weren’t bumps a long the way like sickness, death and divorce? Then we might not learn lessons and become grateful for what we have.
So in so many ways, I am so thankful that we live on Earth…. that we have this advantage to create something special here… because we are going to be there one day.
And…. another thing…. I kind of believe Heaven is all around us. Like dad is around me. He’s not in a specific place…. but more like that place is all around me in another dimension and I can’t see it… but it’s going on everywhere. It’s so close to us, yet we are so far from it with all of the humanness we’ve taken on in being on Earth.
And since it is so close to us… we have a right to get closer to it by becoming better humans, kinder humans, more loving humans…. but I don’t think that our goal should be to become all of those things so we can get closer to Heaven. I think those things should be our goal because we want to make this world a better place… we want it to treat us the way we want to be treated.
And… in the end, when death does decide to become our reality…. we will be in Heaven and surrounded by goodness and love…. but how amazing is it that we get to spend time here…. here on Earth… with limits and boundaries and life lessons?