Another Speed Bump Ahead

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Moving forward… moving forward… moving forward…

Bam…. all of a sudden a moment of stress hits me… a moment where I have to choose to let it go and move forward or allow the moment to completely take my peace away…

And it’s my choice… it really is up to me… whether this will steal the peace that is right here… readily available to me…

But it still seems like a challenge to remain calm…

God’s even saying “you’ll be fine. I’ll take care of you”… but I let the words of others, the chaos of others, the decisions of others dictate me…

And it’s dumb…. it’s dumb to be like this… because I feel like I hit these speed bumps weekly… it’s almost like a chance to redeem myself… to push through and stay peaceful in mind and soul… and I wonder so much if I’ll do it…. Will I actually stay calm… listen to God and trust myself…

And I’d like to say yes… really I would… but I’m following my track record and being honest with the facts… and the facts say no… but maybe… just maybe this time… I won’t allow things like this to shake me….

Because it’s fear of money at the core… it’s lack of control at the root… that’s what I’m feeling… I’m feeling those things… those things that have kept me a prisoner for so long… I am feeling them trying to overtake me and my peace once again….

But in reality… I should just move forward with whatever comes my way… trust what God says… trust myself… and have confidence that peace is right there…. all I have to do is live with it….

Simple enough… Huh??…

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