The Impact

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I had this thought yesterday… about life… wondering this… are we supposed to impact life or is life supposed to impact us?…

And I’ve been taught my entire life that we are supposed to impact life… that we are supposed to change the world… the words “world changer” have been embedded into me since before i can remember…. and because of it… well it’s taken me sometime to come to this place….

And I think in so many ways… well coming to this place marks something within me… because as I looked around the room yesterday… a room with three girls I met four years ago when I went to Christ for the Nations… well I realized that life had impacted me… that because of a choice I made a few years ago… well I was impacted by people and a place…

And in realizing this I continued to see that life has impacted me… It has impacted me far more than I have impacted it…

And I also started to think of all the times I’ve been impacted and I’ve been angry with others for not seeing what I saw… Because to me… Well to me in those moments… what I saw was truth… And I blamed others for not seeing it with me… For not seeing how life was impacting me…

And now that I look back… well life certainly molded me… the changes shaped me and helped me become the woman I am today… but they were also the way life was impacting me… and I shouldn’t have gotten so mad and angry with people during that time of change and transition… because it was me that was being transformed…

AndI guess I’m trying to show myself that I’m so grateful life impacted me rather than me impacting it… Because it is so much wiser and experienced in the ways of making an impact and how a person comes to the place they are at…

So… more than anything I think life has helped me come to a place where I realize it can be so rich… so full… so possible… and so amazing… but only when discovering the things that are truly valuable…

And yesterday it seemed a little much to drive 3 hours to Dallas to spend 4 hours there and drive 3 hours back… but to me… well to me that was valuable and of worth… and because of the changes I’ve experienced in the last four years… well I’ve placed a value on who is in my life and why… and those that are marked invaluable and irreplaceable… well they are worth the journey to….

And I guess more than anything… I am so grateful that life impacts us rather than us impacting it…

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