Just Let It Go

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What happens when you begin to realize your worth?… when you begin to realize it’s not mature of you to be so irritated and bitter with someone when you know so much?… what happens when you feel this need to value yourself more and in that need you discover that it’s stupid… no ridiculous to hold onto something and be mad at someone?… what happens when you realize you’re being dramatic in holding bitterness towards someone?… just so you have a good story to tell someone else?…
That’s where I am right now… holding onto something so tight because it’s all I really have… but in reality… well in reality it’s very foolish and dumb… because as I begin to find value and worth in myself… well I begin to wonder why I would even hold something like that… why would I take the bitterness that’s in my heart and peg it on anyone?…
And I guess maybe it’s another way I’m learning how to discover my worth… another way to really truly become me…
Because at the end of the year I don’t want to find myself bitter with someone just because I can tell a story from it… or just because it’s one thing I have… the one and probanly only thing keeping me from being at peace…
And so it’s important to me… to my self-value, self-worth and present that I let it all go…
And it’s strange though… in letting this go… well usually the Lord would have me talk to the person… tell them I am sorry… ask for their forgiveness.. but in this situation he says to just deal with it from within… just let it go right here fair and sqaure… and not even involve anyone else or anything else…
So I guess that’s what I’ve chosen to do… and in doing so… well I hope to live with a little more peace from within…

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