And the Grace Continues…

IMG_3383What would my life be like if I wasn’t constantly learning on a moment to moment basis… Constantly making mistake after mistake… The kind that help me grow and make me better…

And then I find myself so grateful for the opportunity placed in front of my feet… That I can learn how to raise kids without them actually being mine… And I continue to learn what I will and will not be as a parent… And it brings me so much hope…

But at the same time… It’s so rewarding to be in this place right now in life… Sometimes… In the midst of life… Well I forget how genuinely blessed I am… I get so glued to the drama in my current life and forget to see the entire picture around me…

And it’s good… It’s always been good…

And I think that’s where I find myself right now… In this place of being grateful for grace… For redemption… For the fact that life can change so swiftly… Or be changed so swiftly… For the fact that I can change and be better… Better than yesterday…. For the fact that I can teach a child how to do those things….

And it amazes me still that it’s so simple to share the faith that I was raised in… It’s so simple to share it without sharing the religion that micromanaged my life… To teach a child it’s not about how you start, but how you finish… That it’s better to have a day with a bad attitude and then become good, rather than just have a good attitude all day…. Because to me it shows that we have the ability to change… To transform and become better…

And I don’t know why grace is so important to me right now… I once defined it as the ability to forgive by seeing past the hurt and pain and then the ability to become close to others through love… And I know we all define it differently… That grace is what saves us and causes us to live a fuller life…

But I think to me… In this moment… This moment in life where I find myself pursuing simplicity but also pursuing meaning… Well I find it as a catalyst… Something that we use and can use everyday… Within every moment… Towards ourselves and others… If we just simply try….

And I guess that’s why it continues to become a topic of discussion when the 5 year old I nanny for has a bad attitude… It used to be all the time… Constantly it seemed I’d have to remind him to change his attitude… But now… Now he says, “hey Amanda, I changed my attitude.”… He says something before I have to chance to point out that he’s become a better person….

And I think that’s so encouraging… I think it’s so uplifting to see change… Well actually grace applied in such a small situation… That a child can grasp the fact that he doesn’t have to carry a bad attitude and stay angry with his world… But that he can just change in that moment and be a little bit better than before… That he can show love to others around him by forgiving them and seeing that they aren’t out to get him…

It’s such so encouraging….

And it also reminds me to continue to show myself the same amount to grace and love… To extend grace to myself and be forgiving when I make a mistake or have a bad day… And then to return it to others…. To show grace to them as well…

Because at the end of the day I believe we all have the capability of living life with a little more grace…

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