Going Up… Again…

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Do you ever have those moments in life where God asks you to trust him for something… And you think “I am trusting you…”

But in reality you know you aren’t… Because in reality… Well you’ve never had to entrust him with certain areas of life before…

That’s where I find myself… Right now… In this moment of life… Where I feel so unsure in areas…

I guess that’s part of life though… We think we know how to trust… And we do… But then there are times we have to trust for things we’ve never had to trust for before…

So past the knowing… We find ourselves in an area of just doing…

I know that’s where my mom finds herself… Trusting God in hundreds of different areas that she’s never had to think about before… And then hoping the entire time she’s doing things the “right way”…

And so it’s good for me to look to her a an example…

But I still wonder… I still question… I still find myself searching for a “how will this ever even happen?”…

And I use this analogy so many times for myself… But I am again reminded of a mountain…

I think we climb several mountains in life… And not just in life… But in areas of life…

And to me… Well to me… Once we’ve mastered the art of climbing… Well there will always be the challenge of coming across a new mountain… I believe life always presents us with challenge upon challenge… Nothing hard or burdensome… But things that we can tackle… Things that cause us to grow and mature…

And I always like to call those things mountains… The one thing that I look at and think “dear God this is going to take work… Patience.. Lots and lots of patience… And I’m going to have a moment or maybe many where I want to quit… Where I want out… But I’ll keep climbing until I reach the top… Because I’ve been to the top so many times… And I know what it feels like… I know that it’s worth it… It’s worth the moments where I don’t feel like I can do it… It’s worth the moments where I don’t always trust the next ledge in front of me… It’s worth it so much that I’ll choose to keep moving forward… Upward and onward…”

Yep… That’s what I think… It’s how I tackle what’s in front of me…

And so right now… In all honesty… I guess my response to God is the same as it was last night… “I’ll just trust you… I’ll just keep living every day to the fullest… To the best of my ability… And I’ll continue to hope the ledge in front of me is designed to help me move up and not send me crashing downward…”

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