Seasonal Grief…

IMG_1214I’m in a place right now… A place that is full of grief… Yet full of excitement…

Looking back, I’m grateful for the death of my dad and the grief I’ve felt and sometimes continue to feel…

Because within it I’ve learned something valuable… And it’s that we go through stages of grief in life a lot…

No it’s not always as intensifying loosing a loved one… But it is grief…

To me… To me it can be best described as the feelings we get when a season is coming to an end…

Like when summer is almost over… Fall can be felt in the air… And we want to start dressing a little warmer… But then summer reminds us how amazing it is… It reminds us of all the moments we’ve spent in the heat, by the pool just laughing…

And we realize that no summer will ever be like the one before… Because we will grow and change… And a new adventure will be waiting within the next one…

And that’s what I feel right now… This seasonal grief…

It says, “move onto the next season with excitement, but hang onto these last few moments of value”…

Because to me these last few moments… The ones that I might’ve hated before… Well now they are valuable to be… And it hurts my heart to see them go…

It hurts my heart to move forward… But then again… That’s life… And that’s part of the journey… The ups and the downs… The roller coaster… The climb of the mountain…

It’s what makes things so unbearably exciting, yet so real and heartbreaking…

And I know this time will pass… And I will be consumed by the new excitements and the growth of it all…

But right now… Right now this seasonal grief is what I feel… And I believe it’s healthy to just live with it…

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