I opened the box more and more yesterday… I lived in the day… And as I did… Well parts of me wish I hadn’t…

Because beneath the beautiful wrapping… Well right now I see a heavy, heavy, heavy brown box…

And this heavy brown box is too much for me to carry…

Basically… I don’t want the heavy brown box or whatever is in it…

Now… I might change my mind when I actually open the box…

But for now… Right now… My answer to God is this…

This life situation… It’s to heavy for me to carry… You told me 3 months ago to “wait for the weight”… Well I have… And I don’t want the weight… I am not equip to carry these types of burdens or problems…

And though they cause my heart pain and some grief… I will not pick them up and carry them with me…

Instead I choose to just give it to my Father in Heaven… Because I believe He’s the one strong enough… Equipped enough… Loving enough… And more than enough to carry it all…

And I truly believe if I can do that simple thing over and over again… Well it will lead me to just live with more and more peace…