Not Copy/Paste…

In so many ways…. Well there’s always been a map… A clear guideline and route to follow… One that makes sense to those who look at it…

When we’re finally old enough, school is the destination… 18 years of “prep” school… To prepare us for the real world… The real world that’s then called college…

And from that point… Well we’re placed on another track… One that can seem confusing… And sometimes quite a party… But I guess that’s college…

And from there we’re expected to enter the real world… Get a good job that promises a future and a good promotion… Maybe get married soon (rather than late)… Have a bunch of kids… And then send them through the same system… So they can feel the same roller coaster of emotions… And so that we can tell them “you’ll figure it out. It’ll work out. I promise”….

But for some reason… Well for some reason that entire “copy/paste” mentality is not the way my life has ever really panned out…

Blame it on choosing to follow the Holy Spirit…

Connecting the dots backwards… Well I might’ve “checked off” certain obligated boxes… But my method of getting there and doing so was completely unconventional…

So now it should be no surprise to me that continuing to follow His lead means… Well it means that same as it did then… That this is not a “copy/paste” life… And that I cannot continue to compare myself to those who choose that option for themselves…

Rather… This is an oringal plan… One specifically designed for me by my Father in Heaven…

But sometimes… Well sometimes when I don’t see the outline… The daily checklist… Heck even a weekly slyabus would be nice… When I don’t see those “things” that have pointed the “way” to the next box to check… Well then I get a little nervous…

My mind screams, “What if I mess up?! What if I miss it?? What if this isn’t what I’m supposed to be doing? Gosh I’m nervous about the unknown”…

But then I remind myself that the unknown has never disappointed me… That I’ve never gone, “well not knowing really hurt me”…

So… All in all… Well, living a life that’s not copy/paste has been a constant adventure… One of thrill, excitement and sometimes wandering…

But I believe it’s more of the way we should live… Just being… And having a general idea that anything could happen next…

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