Not Instant Gratification…

The woman I want to be… The woman I should be… Well she’s much more patient than I’ve been lately…

As so much curiousity over where I am in life swirls around in my mind… Well I believe I’m just learning another aspect of God…

It’s an aspect… A way of looking at what He’s promised…

A way that I’ve never truly wanted to or have known how to pay attention to before…

My grandmother used yo say, “just put it on a shelf”…

That was her way of holding onto the promises… The prophicies… The truths of what God has spoken… But what she had yet to see become a reality….

And in this crazy world we live in… Where almost everything is given to us instantly… Well I’ve forgotten that she taught me to put it on a shelf…

And when you’re 20… And then 25… And even now at 27… Well you’d think some of the things Gods shown me would have become a reality…

But I think I’ve finally come to a place of perspective…. A place that speaks more on the truth of God’s timing… And that says to me that… Well maybe God shows us things when were young… But maybe that doesn’t necessarily mean they’ll happen in a year… Or in 5 years… Or even in 10 years…

Because I’m finally realizing this mindset of instant gratification is so unrealistic… And completely unhealthy…

And that… Yes, yes sometimes God does things instantly… Or within months of each other…

But the kinds of things I’m talking about are more like “my life’s mission” type of scenrio… And for some reason I just keep thinking they’re going to play out now…

It almost feels like planning for my 50th birthday party… Only I’m in my twenties… And it doesn’t matter how much I plan now… Well I still have to live several decades before I reach 50….

So I believe that’s what’s happened here… Gods placed something in my heart… And being young… And living in an age of social media and immediate download… Well I’ve assumed it’s going to happen “now”… Or really, really soon…

But with age I continue to see that good things take time… Lots of time to grow and mature…

And so we are challenged with just being in the now… And loving the now… The present… Just loving it with all that’s in us…

And for me that’s actually a thing I hate…  Because I want to follow the “I can do anything I want… Be anywhere I want… And have anything I want instantly…”

But God… His systems… His ways… His Kingdom… Well that takes time for change to be enacted…

And as much as I don’t want to be ok with that piece of reality… Well I believe having peace with it will be helpful… And will encourage me to just live and experience whatever is next in all of its fullness…

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