Worthy of Love…

Worthy of love…

It’s what “Amanda” means…

Though most of the time I find myself very unaccepting of love… Almost shying away from the love God wants to share with me…

To me… It’s seems so simple to have this bosom friendship with the Holy Spirit… Because in all honesty I love guidance, direction and counsel on life… I enjoy curiosity, mystery and the thrill of the friendship with the Holy Spirit…

But then… Well when it comes to actually allowing God… God the Father to love me… I am so good at ignoring it… Almost forgetting it’s there…

But… Now… Now as I seem to have come to a certain place… Well I see that, in this moment, my relationship with the Holy Spirit doesn’t matter…

It shouldn’t come first…

And God is beginning to unfold to me what it means to be worthy of love… That even in the midst of the run around my mind and soul have done… Well He says things like, “I don’t care… I don’t care about the runaround… About the time you think you might’ve lost… I don’t care…”

And in that… Well… It’s just grace… It’s just being so worthy of something that I feel so undeserving of…

Grace and worthiness that says, “It doesn’t matter where you are… Where you’re going… Or why you are doing those things… Just be still, relax and allow me to love you…”

And in so many ways I am unsure of where my life is going… Where the path in front of me seems to be leading…

But… For a moment… How ever long it lasts… I’m going to stop, relax and just allow myself to experience the worthiness of God’s love…

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