Searching for the Diamond…

Several nights ago I had a dream… In the dream I slid face first down a giant slide… On the way down, my diamond necklace got caught in a crack on the slide… When I reached the bottom, I discovered my diamond was missing… Only the chain and backing that held the diamond remained… And so… I searched frantically for the diamond…

Of course… After a moment of sheer panic I found it… It was super easy to find too… Right underneath the slide I just came flying down…

But that moment in the middle… That moment where I choose “emergency panic mode”… Well in that moment… I was full of fear… And the fear told me, “This is going to be so difficult to find.. That diamond is so precious to you… How will you ever find it?…”

But then… Well once I found it… Everyone in the dream kind of laughed at me for making such a big deal out of nothing… That it was so simple to just “find” it…

And… In this moment… Well this is where my life seems to be…

I feel like over the course of the last few months I’ve taken a ride down a slide… And now I am at the bottom of the slide… Realizing something of value is missing… That I had it before… But somehow it got caught between the cracks in life…

And now… Well… Just like in the dream I am frantically searching for it… With a mindset that says, “This is so difficult… How will I ever find it?”…

And the thing… The diamond I seem to be searching for is the love of God… My relationship with God the Father… The one who is full of just grace and love…

And this moment feels altogether awful… Because my mind has made it so difficult to find Him and His love…

But… Like in the dream… Well I’m realizing that I won’t find what I am looking for when I am full of fear… Instead… Well I need to make a choice… I need to choose peace… And I need to realize panicking never really helps anything…  It really just clutters the mind…

But… Real, high-quality love… The type that I am searching for… Well it’s found in a peaceful place…

And though my mind is telling me a million negative things right now… Mostly lies about myself… Well I am sure that this… This love that I am searching for will tell me billions, if not trillions, of positive things…

Because that’s who Father God is… His real, authentic love says, “I’ll always be here for you when you need me… I’ll always be a father to you through it all… I’ll forgive you when it seems unforgivable… And I’ll even forget what you did in the past… Plus, I’ve placed so much potential inside of you and I am so eager to see it come out”

And though my mind wants to tell me differently… I believe simply accepting His love… Well it’s enough…

It’s enough to stop panicking, see the diamond on the floor and to then pick it up and take it as my own again…

 

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