Uninvited… 

Carrying around the love of God on the inside seems simple…

You go about your day enjoying the goodness of God… The awe of who He is and what it means to be His child…

But over the last three days or so I’ve learned something…

Something about the personality of the Father… And how sensitive He is…

I didn’t get invited to a birthday party… A party for someone I love so much… And honesty…. Well it hurt…

So in the midst of the hurt… In the midst of the thoughts that said, “But I love them and so much of my life… Of me went into that environment”…Well I found myself with a new perspective…

That perspective is this…

I assume… Since God is everywhere… That He is going to just automatically show up when He wants…

And because He talks to me throughout the day… Well I never realized He needed an invitation…

But that changed yesterday… For the first time I realized… The feelings I was having… We’re also feelings God has been having towards me…

I felt sad… Disappointed… And altogether let down… Because I wasn’t invited into an environment I poured my heart and my life into…

And I believe this is how God feels… He pours His thoughts, wisdom, love and grace into me constantly… And I speak to Him… I ask for His casual opinion… But then I hold Him back from being invited into the celebration of my day… Into the awe and thrill of the moment I may be having…

It’s like He’s worked so hard to help me become me… To place so much of Himself inside of me… And to give me the best life possible…

And then I choose to uninvite Him… I choose to go about the day… And if it’s blissful and amazing, well then I’ll thank Him… And if it’s treacherous and challenging, well I complain or ask Him “what’s the deal”…

But I don’t ever just flat out say, “Hey, God we’ve been doing life together… We’ve been on this amazing journey… You’ve taught me some amazing things… And you continue to show me what I good Father you are… Would you actually like to be invited into all of the moments I have each day?.. Like officially invited?…”

I never do that…

And honestly… The feeling of being uninvited to celebrate someone you love… Well it sucks… It hurts…

But then I guess it’s one more reason I’m encouraged to invite Him a long…

To invite Him as I just continue to live…

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