Life Lessons… With Death…

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Life’s strange… So many moments don’t make sense until we look back and connect the dots…

Death has definitely become something I’ve realized is part of… Well part of life…

It’s permanent for everyone affected by the one who is gone…

I can’t say I wasn’t, to some degree, prepared for this…

But it’s still sad… It’s still heartbreaking…

Neci was my closest aunt… She was my godmother… And… When I was younger, she was my close friend…

She was the one who looked at me after my dad died and said, “The next few days will be a blur. They’ll all kind of mush together. You’ll be exhausted. People will say things like, ‘I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. Losing a father.’ And you’ll look at them and think, ‘You’re right. Now leave me alone.”

She was right… That’s exactly what it was like…

And now… Now I feel heartbroken for my cousins… They’re more like my younger brothers…

And it hurts me to know that they are hurt… Hurting… And will forever have to live with the reality of losing a parent so young…

IMG_5207But I think… More than anything… In the midst of all of this… Well I believe death… Death of any form encourages me to keep living… To keep loving… To keep, as my aunt would say, “reaching for the stars.”

Because she, like my father, had a lot of faith in me… Always…

And so losing two people that loved me so dearly is sad… But it reminds me that we’re all going to die one day…

Maybe not now… Maybe in 5 years… Maybe when we’re super old and gray…

But we will die… And so how we live is so important…

Actually it’s the most important…

It’s important to forgive… To love… To let go of the bitterness, jealousy and anger we hold towards ourselves, God and one another…

Because when we die… Well I hope that others can see that we lived… That we took risks… That we followed God or whatever higher power we believe in…

And that we followed Him well… Even when things didn’t make sense…

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