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Gifting?
Decisions. Decisions aren’t that difficult to make, but they are when you have no idea what you’re doing. I’d honestly love to believe I...
Amanda Winder
Jun 27, 20143 min read
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Good v Evil
Cancer… it feels like it’s everywhere right now. People with it, people getting checked for it, the fear of it.. The fear of sickness and...
Amanda Winder
Jun 26, 20145 min read
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Realness
Life is starting to adjust without dad being here. It feels weird too. It feels weird to see Bridge pack dad’s small suitcase to take...
Amanda Winder
Jun 25, 20144 min read
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Mom
I had a dream last night and dad was in it… or at least he was communicating with me through text messages. It felt so real, and it had...
Amanda Winder
Jun 24, 20143 min read
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Bitterness
What’s the hardest part about death? Well, I don’t know yet.. The pain is real but it’s a different kind of pain. I’ve never experienced...
Amanda Winder
Jun 23, 20143 min read
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Fear
Money. I have this strange relationship with money and fear… well fear is the what makes our relationship strange. See dad had a huge...
Amanda Winder
Jun 22, 20145 min read
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Connection
So I’ve been thinking about this whole eternity, Heaven concept… and for some reason dad’s death still doesn’t feel real. I mean he was...
Amanda Winder
Jun 22, 20143 min read
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Grief
It’s Saturday… none of us want to do anything, but I don’t want to sit here either because then I have to think…. And I don’t wanna think...
Amanda Winder
Jun 21, 20143 min read
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Happiness
People keep saying, “aren’t you glad you have Jesus?” “Isn’t it great to know God is comforting you?” “How do people make it without...
Amanda Winder
Jun 21, 20144 min read
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Closeness
I’m still numb… and it’s odd because I’ve been drinking, so you’d think I’d be a little more emotional or thoughtful about this...
Amanda Winder
Jun 21, 20143 min read
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Frozen
Today is the first morning I woke up, walked past the office and expected to see my dad sitting at his desk working on numbers… or on the...
Amanda Winder
Jun 20, 20144 min read
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Family
Now, I’m not walking around with my chin to the ground. And I’m not depressed, bawling my eyes out, or pessimistic about life… but I am...
Amanda Winder
Jun 20, 20144 min read
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Change
Some thing else that’s bothering me is the fact that God could’ve healed him. I know some of the reasons he didn’t, and I have to make...
Amanda Winder
Jun 19, 20143 min read
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Honor
I don’t really question why or say I don’t understand why you’re gone… because I know, and I think that’s what hurts me the most. It’s...
Amanda Winder
Jun 19, 20143 min read
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Reality
Death is so strange. My dad is gone. Like he’s never coming back. Ever. And I don’t know how I feel about that. And it doesn’t make...
Amanda Winder
Jun 19, 20142 min read
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Father's Day
You’ve been gone for 11 days, and honestly I’ve held it together for the most part until today. I didn’t think today would be hard...
Amanda Winder
Jun 19, 20143 min read
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