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Embrace the Interest...
I’m hurting… There’s not an easier or better work for what I feel but pain… I just miss my dad… And it hasn’t hit me this hard in several...
Amanda Winder
May 2, 20152 min read
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Too Young
It’s sad to think about mom being alone… It’s sad to hear her talk about selling our home… It’s sad to hear her say she’s going to...
Amanda Winder
Mar 7, 20151 min read
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Moments...
A year ago I decided to focus my life on living in the moment…. But as I began to live in the moment…. Well I got caught up in the fact...
Amanda Winder
Mar 2, 20153 min read
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Aftershocks...
Death and all that surrounds what it is has this way of creeping up on you at the most unexpected times… Like when I’m in Hobby Lobby...
Amanda Winder
Jan 23, 20152 min read
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This Christmas
It’s not even that the holidays are hard… They just aren’t the same… Christmas isn’t the same without you dad… Dad… You were the one that...
Amanda Winder
Dec 24, 20143 min read
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The Memory Tree
Since I was around the age of 15 I’ve complained about one thing… I didn’t think we had any family holiday traditions…. I’d look around...
Amanda Winder
Dec 20, 20143 min read
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I'm Happy Dad
the past few days have been a busy blur… and in the midst… well… i think about dad and then the thought is usually gone so quickly… it...
Amanda Winder
Dec 14, 20143 min read
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The Rose
On Thanksgiving a rose was growing in my grandparents garden…. From a rose bush that my dad planted…. But the Rose was pink… And it was...
Amanda Winder
Dec 3, 20142 min read
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Month Six...
July 2nd… August 2nd… September 2nd… October 2nd… November 2nd… And bam… December 2nd is here… It’s been six months… six months since...
Amanda Winder
Dec 2, 20143 min read
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Hugging It Out
When someone you love… someone you care about… someone that’s close to you is gone… you make a choice…. Mom said last month that she’s at...
Amanda Winder
Nov 26, 20143 min read
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Grateful for the Pain
Now I’m not gonna lie and say being home is a breeze…. It’s painful and there are certainly tears… But if I could really describe this...
Amanda Winder
Nov 25, 20143 min read
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The Holidays are Coming...
It’s an overwhelming thought to think…. the one that includes my mom having to sort through her life…. Knowing that she shouldn’t have to...
Amanda Winder
Nov 17, 20143 min read
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The Provider
Yesterday I starred thinking about the Yarbrough house…. the house I lived in for 16 years… the house my parents lived in for 20 years…...
Amanda Winder
Nov 7, 20144 min read
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It's Not Concrete Anymore
Can I do this day without as much drama as I did yesterday? Can I take the stress I felt from yesterday and decrease it? God how can I...
Amanda Winder
Oct 28, 20142 min read
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Death Lessons
Death keeps teaching me so many lessons…. I wonder if it is one of the greatest teachers… There are so many facets to it… The absence of...
Amanda Winder
Oct 21, 20143 min read
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We Just Do Life
And then there were three…. Three of us remain… and we are supposed to be a family of four… but that’s not how life turned out… and it’s...
Amanda Winder
Oct 18, 20144 min read
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Grief: stage 2?
5-10 years with cancer…. Living with the knowledge of it for one month… One week in the hospital… 2 days spent as a family before he was...
Amanda Winder
Oct 14, 20142 min read
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Hurting for Mom...
You know those unexpected moments when you don’t think tears aren’t going to hit you out of know where?… I just simply open a photo book...
Amanda Winder
Oct 9, 20143 min read
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Over It...
Is it ok to admit that I’m ok?… Is it ok to admit for the first time in my entire life I don’t feel like something is negative and bad...
Amanda Winder
Oct 5, 20143 min read
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Still Without...
Missing dad becomes different…. Each time I miss him it seems to be for a different reason… Like he’s not there to take in the moment… or...
Amanda Winder
Oct 4, 20144 min read
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