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Downfall of Bitterness
Death has a strange way of bringing out the truth in people…. Seriously…. all of a sudden you can ask questions and hear people express...
Amanda Winder
Sep 25, 20143 min read
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Lacking Support
I’m a little irritated… maybe a little angry…. a little bit disappointed…. and I didn’t really realize it until last night…. Before dad...
Amanda Winder
Sep 21, 20143 min read
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A Moment Without Words
There’s an image in my mind… An image I can’t shake… It’s the day of dads visitation and I’m running late… Moms a case of grief… She’s...
Amanda Winder
Sep 17, 20142 min read
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Empty Spaces...
The emotions of death are so real and raw…. It doesn’t matter where I am, who I’m with or what I’m doing… when I feel the emotions...
Amanda Winder
Sep 13, 20142 min read
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Do Not Resuscitate
I find myself questioning a lot right now…. In my own mind and with mom… Actually my conversation with mom sparked these thoughts.. We...
Amanda Winder
Sep 7, 20144 min read
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Shine Up
Yesterday came and went so quickly….. it came and went and I never even thought about the fact that it was three months since dad’s been...
Amanda Winder
Sep 3, 20143 min read
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Respecting the Unknown
I miss my dad so much…. I miss him so much and all of a sudden jokes about death and dying strike me differently. Like yesterday….....
Amanda Winder
Sep 2, 20143 min read
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A Weekend Without
Well….. college football season finally began today. It’s officially a new season… A new year to watch teams dominate….. and obviously...
Amanda Winder
Aug 30, 20142 min read
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Joy through the Pain
I cry when I see people tragically die in movies now…. like the scenes that just don’t seem right or fair…. well I understand that pain...
Amanda Winder
Aug 24, 20143 min read
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Comfort in Finding Self
In death I’m learning that we’re all supposed to keep living…. keep living and moving forward and pursuing whatever it is we truly want...
Amanda Winder
Aug 20, 20143 min read
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Plot Twist
Have you ever had those moments where you want to yell “plot twist?” I feel like my entire year has been devoted to that phrase. From...
Amanda Winder
Aug 15, 20144 min read
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With Time
Will we still be having the same conversation 5-20 years from now? Will we still be ever so curious…. wondering how life without dad is a...
Amanda Winder
Aug 12, 20144 min read
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Respecting Moments
How do I feel right now? I feel rested, but I’m still searching….. searching for so much and completely curious and intrigued by this...
Amanda Winder
Aug 10, 20143 min read
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Smelling the Roses
I feel jumbled on the inside. Frustrated every time I’m driving to work early in the morning and I want to call dad…. And I can’t. I just...
Amanda Winder
Aug 9, 20143 min read
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Stewardship of a Child
Since dad’s been gone I’ve wanted to tell him so many things… share my little, yet expanding L.A. world with him like I always did…. but...
Amanda Winder
Aug 7, 20143 min read
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Missing the Moment
I had a solid moment of regret yesterday….. regret followed by pain and tears. I regretted not telling dad goodbye when he was alert and...
Amanda Winder
Aug 4, 20143 min read
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Dig Deep
So many emotions are swirling inside of me this morning. I know deep down that I have so much to prove in order to advance to the next...
Amanda Winder
Aug 1, 20142 min read
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Staying Focused
I don’t know what I’ve been feeling for the past few days. I feel like I’m feeling so much, but I’m kind of ignoring it all…. trying to...
Amanda Winder
Jul 29, 20142 min read
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Lacking Fullness
Since dad’s death, Bridge has mentioned that her life has always been pretty perfect…. pretty perfect until now…. and after hearing her...
Amanda Winder
Jul 24, 20143 min read
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Overriding Grief
I’m back…. back in the City of Angels…. and for some reason I’m not extremely happy to be here. I feel sad and a little angry. As...
Amanda Winder
Jul 23, 20143 min read
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