It’s very rare that I struggle with expressing myself. My family jokes that I normally reach my word quota by 9am every morning. HA! I can’t help it. I just have so much to say. I love to use my words to process ideas and build solutions. My voice… My words… They are tools God’s… Continue reading New Skin
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Gifts for the Mountain of Maturity
Last Tuesday, Holy Spirit presented me an endless pile of gifts. I saw them in the spirit, wrapped in white paper with giant pink bows and received them with open arms. He told me most of the gifts were locked and needed a key. I asked if I could start opening the gifts that don’t… Continue reading Gifts for the Mountain of Maturity
Painless Days
Remember a few months ago when I said I was doing a lot of "off road following" with God?.. Well, guess what?... We're still "off road" and I honestly have no idea where I'm going... Plus, to make things a little bit riskier, my "New Year's resolution" is to not plan... To not think ahead… Continue reading Painless Days
Closure…
Why is it so hard to walk away from something we love so much?.. Why did God place a heart inside of us that can so easily find the good in a person, love that person and then ask us to walk away from that goodness?... From relationships that were cultivated so well and meant… Continue reading Closure…
Broken Comfort Zone..
Do you ever have those moments when you just want to shake life? Like literally pick it up shake it around and question why it's acting up?... Thats how I feel right now... Like I need to interigate life for it's actions... For the pain and injustice I feel... For the confusion and misunderstanding in… Continue reading Broken Comfort Zone..
Amanda’s Plan… Gone Wrong…
What happens when the story doesn't add up the way we planned?... When life takes a turn... And then another turn... And then one more turn... But not in the direction our childhood fantasies ever dreamed... What happens when those unexpected turns cause us hurt, pain and regret... When we feel like life has become a never ending black… Continue reading Amanda’s Plan… Gone Wrong…
Authentic Identity…
Identity... It's been like a foreign language to me... I was basically getting by in life because I trusted that those around me would translate what I heard but didn't understand... Because, with their translations, then I'd feel stable and safe... And who actually cares if what they told me was true?... I mean, I trust those people, places and… Continue reading Authentic Identity…
Girth Growth…
Does God ever ask you something, but you have absolutely no idea what He means by what He says?... He just flat out says, "I want you to do this, this and that..." And then you're left thinking, "Great, this, this and that sound lovely... but what do they mean?"... Well that's exactly where I find… Continue reading Girth Growth…
Like the Ocean’s Tide…
So it's been a full week of what I consider serious revelation... Of what feels to be an almost purging of my soul... And then I had a dream last night... In the dream, at certain periods of the night, water would flood in through cracks in my walls... The water height in the room… Continue reading Like the Ocean’s Tide…
It’s Not Concrete Anymore
Can I do this day without as much drama as I did yesterday? Can I take the stress I felt from yesterday and decrease it? God how can I truly move onto the next phase of my life if I’m staying so low? That’s what I’m doing right now…. I am staying low because I… Continue reading It’s Not Concrete Anymore