I am weary, God. I am very weary. I don't enjoy this process of maturity that asks me to keep climbing upwards. It is a high peak where we are going. My soul doesn’t like this. My soul wants to give up and walk away. I don't like this at all. Holy Spirit said, "Okay...… Continue reading Onward & Upward: Pressing Past the Soul
I sat down to pout. I sat down to sulk. I sat down to complain about how frustrated I felt. And then… All in one moment… I stopped myself. I stopped myself and said, “Amanda, you don’t do this anymore. You’ve outgrown this place where you get upset over things that are out of your control.… Continue reading This is Who I Am
Isolation. Oh gosh, I hate isolation. Actually, I hate the initial feeling of isolation. Have you ever felt it before? It’s this blatant reality that no one completely gets you, who you are or what you’re going through. And it’s deeper than feeling alone because when we’re isolated we aren’t actually “alone”. You see... When… Continue reading The Isolated Life
Patience... Patience is really, really, really challenging for me. You see I’ve learned how to be patient with people and situations that are out of my control... But patience with God, myself and my own life.... Well that’s a completely different story. You see I just don’t like to wait. Waiting... Well waiting seems SO… Continue reading Wait-y
When I was 14 years old all I wanted was a pink iPod mini... I mean, Apple had just really started to become cool and I "needed" one... However, my parents didn't just buy us whatever we wanted when we wanted it... We'd almost always have to wait until a birthday or Christmas... So I… Continue reading Sassy and Entitled
Anger... How do I trudge through it with peace in my heart?! I really don't know.. I definitely feel like I've been robbed of so much and that angers me... But more than anything anger is causing me to want to punch God in the face... And it's kind of funny... Because, in the past… Continue reading Angry with God?..
Why do we complain so much? Why do we willingly choose to be irritated and annoyed when life doesn't go are way or when... God forbid... We're "put out." Since living in Cali I've been working on my selfishness and quite honestly it's helped me realize how entitled I actually am. My entitlement has come… Continue reading Give to Gain