About a month ago, I was speaking with one of my angels. I saw him walking in the distance from a field. He came closer with a scroll. He said, “I have the scroll, but this part needs to be unlocked.” Then, I saw another tiny scroll inside of the larger one, but it was… Continue reading Division
Category: darkness
The Languishing Leviathan
It's been a full decade since I was awakened to real, true evil and darkness... As I leaned over the hospital bed to pray for my frail grandmother a thick, firm voice snapped back at me, “I raised you!” All in one moment it hit me, the voice coming from the bed wasn’t my grandmother’s.… Continue reading The Languishing Leviathan
The Thrill of Peace
You might oppose me when saying this... But there's something so thrilling about darkness. Yes, it's uncomfortable and intolerable. Of course it can feel like a constant circus of chaos and a cave of deep despair. However, in the midst of the darkness, I've learned that it is COMPLETELY possible to be fixated on peace… Continue reading The Thrill of Peace
Two Trees
I left social media. I didn’t deactivate my accounts, but I left... Promising myself I would return when I felt I could consume without being burdened by pride, hate, bitterness, anger, jealousy, grief and shame. That’s what social media does to me. I pick it up with the idea of “connecting” to “share” my world… Continue reading Two Trees
Demonic Occupancy
Remember the anger and disappointment I told you about in my last writing? Oh you know... The anger and disappointment that were consuming 10% of my heart? Well... Once I fully acknowledged them and began to pursue more of God's love, my heart began to hurt.... Like PHYSICALLY hurt. Now, obviously when pain strikes my… Continue reading Demonic Occupancy
Sharp Objects
I had a dream about a month ago... I was standing in my living room and from the kitchen a dark figure was standing at my counter throwing knives, swords and other sharp objects at me. In the moment I didn’t know what to do.... So I reached my hand out and surprising caught each… Continue reading Sharp Objects
One Present Moment
Can I be honest?... I think about life and death A LOT! Seriously though... I think about the reality of mortality and what it means to be fully alive on the inside constantly. Now, recently the Holy Spirit said, "Just live this summer Amanda. Take the next three months and really focus your attention on… Continue reading One Present Moment
Year Five
Five years ago today I watched my dad take his last breath. All in one moment the reality of death made his appearance in my life. You see it was evidently clear that I was starring at my dad, but then at the same time I wasn't. Every part of him (the smile, the jokes,… Continue reading Year Five
Inception
One of my favorite movies is about a man hired to use a dream machine to plant an idea into the mind of another man... It’s called Inception. In one scene you find Leonardo DiCaprio (he’s the one hired to plant the idea) and his colleagues in a room full of sleeping people who are… Continue reading Inception
Do You Feel It?
It's getting really rough out there... Do you feel it? Can you sense it? Is your mind and spirit comprehending what's happening, or are you still asleep, numb and dumbed down to it all? I don't know how any of us plan to move forward in life at this day and age if we don't… Continue reading Do You Feel It?