I sat down with the Father last week to discuss multiplication. The week before He told me I had merely scratched the surface of it. Before I could even begin to ask a question, I heard “the heart of intent. That’s where we are headed next.” Then He took me back to 2008, a time… Continue reading The Heart of Intent
Category: death
Receiver
I walked 16.8 miles last Wednesday, June 2. At the top of my walk, I stumbled on a bed of pink peonies and my heart was immediately elated. I squealed with excitement and joy when I saw them because they are my favorite flower. Everything about them is absolutely lovely. And so, I decided to… Continue reading Receiver
The Languishing Leviathan
It's been a full decade since I was awakened to real, true evil and darkness... As I leaned over the hospital bed to pray for my frail grandmother a thick, firm voice snapped back at me, “I raised you!” All in one moment it hit me, the voice coming from the bed wasn’t my grandmother’s.… Continue reading The Languishing Leviathan
A Promise is A Promise
Six-and-a-half years ago my dad unexpectedly died. A month before he passed my parents had just celebrated their milestone 30th wedding anniversary. To celebrate, they planned to take a trip to Hawaii, but… Well obviously, that didn’t happen. Last week my mom turned 60-years-old. So, in true Winder Sister form and fashion, Bridget and I decided… Continue reading A Promise is A Promise
Reliability
After I lost my dad, one of my biggest challenges was the reality that I felt like there wasn't anyone there to take care of "me" anymore. For 25 years he was ALWAYS there... In my corner... Watching out for me... Protecting me from potential harm. So it was challenging to say the least to… Continue reading Reliability
Two Trees
I left social media. I didn’t deactivate my accounts, but I left... Promising myself I would return when I felt I could consume without being burdened by pride, hate, bitterness, anger, jealousy, grief and shame. That’s what social media does to me. I pick it up with the idea of “connecting” to “share” my world… Continue reading Two Trees
Demonic Occupancy
Remember the anger and disappointment I told you about in my last writing? Oh you know... The anger and disappointment that were consuming 10% of my heart? Well... Once I fully acknowledged them and began to pursue more of God's love, my heart began to hurt.... Like PHYSICALLY hurt. Now, obviously when pain strikes my… Continue reading Demonic Occupancy
If Truth Called, Would You Answer?
If truth called, would you answer? Could you tell her what's happening inside of you right now? Could you explain to her what you believe in, who you believe in and why you believe? Would you be able to examine your life and explain who/what placed these beliefs in your mind and why? And what… Continue reading If Truth Called, Would You Answer?
Kingdom of Lies
Lies... Deception... Manipulation... Layers upon layers rest upon my soul. And so my soul feels confused. But then, my soul doesn’t want a fragment of falseness. My soul wants truth. My heart and spirit crave truth too. But then my mind fears the truth because the lies sound so good and feel so powerful and… Continue reading Kingdom of Lies
One Present Moment
Can I be honest?... I think about life and death A LOT! Seriously though... I think about the reality of mortality and what it means to be fully alive on the inside constantly. Now, recently the Holy Spirit said, "Just live this summer Amanda. Take the next three months and really focus your attention on… Continue reading One Present Moment