angels · anointing · gemstone · grow · kingdom · mature · power

The Gem of Anointing

For about a month now, I’ve been asking Holy Spirit if I can share a spiritual experience I had. I mean… It was fascinating!! So, I couldn’t wait for Him to give me the notion to “move forward.”

About a month ago I was praying, listening to Him and speaking to my human spirit… Then, very suddenly, I saw this giant gemstone in the spirit. It was HUGE. About the width of my chest. Very bright and shiny. Very suddenly it started moving towards me, and I watched as angels screwed it into a large opening that instantly appeared inside my spirit’s chest.

Then, I got a separate view of the process… And I saw the large gemstone actually lay itself onto a smaller gemstone that was already inserted inside of my spirit.

OBVIOUSLY, I immediately wanted to know what I just experienced… And so, Holy Spirit began to explain…

He said, “That large gemstone is your anointing. The small gemstone is the heart of your spirit. See how crystal clear the small gem is? That’s because the light is shinning brightly through your fractals. All of your redemptive gifts are being used. And because the light from your spirit has become so bright and strong, I am having angels install this stone of anointing inside of you. It’s your anointing I am giving YOU. It’s separate from the one your grandmother carried. This is yours. I designed it for you and you alone. It fits your spirit in such an intricate way. And it can grow. As your spirit matures and grows in deeper intimacy with Me, the power of that stone will mature and grow. And more of Me will streamline from it.”

Then He went on to explain that everyone that comes into the Kingdom of Heaven has an anointing because it’s part of our inheritance in Christ. He also told me to stop viewing the anointing the way I was raised to view it. He said, “Religion placed people with strong gifts on pedestals and then called that gift the ‘anointing.’ And, while some of that is true, it’s not all true because everyone has redemptive gifts, spiritual gifts AND an anointing that are all separate from each other, but work together when you access them and cultivate a strong relationship with them.”

Now, if you’re anything like me… Or if you know me in the least bit, then you’ll understand that I was immediately eager to start cultivating a relationship with the stone. I mean… The stone, when activated and used, unlocks so much untapped power and a world full of mystery that is begging to be discovered.

And so that’s exactly what I’ve been doing. I’ve been using this very challenging season of maturity to learn about, operate in and pursue my anointing. Because I am learning that the anointing is vital to my personal track of maturity. I cannot move forward without it. It is essential to ruling & reigning in the Heavens and on Earth. It is pivotal in walking out any God-given, God-appointed mandate. And it is separate from gifting. It is separate from fractals of the human spirit. It is structured and built on presence. To be given or ignited within when the time is best.

And I am sharing this with you because I want to continue to encourage you to keep pursuing a relationship with Father God, Jesus, Holy Spirit AND the Kingdom of Heaven. Because when we do, we not only discover more levels of healing, restoration and deliverance, but we also come into a place where we can discover and learn about portions of our inheritance in Christ we never knew we could posses. And those portions, those gifts, those revelations, those anointings… Well they will provide us with the real and raw capability to move about the earth in such a way of power, dominion and authority I don’t believe we’ve ever seen before.

brokenness · deposit · disappointment · gemstone · mature · value & worth

Needy Necklace…

When I turned 16 all I wanted was a digital camera for my birthday… They were new… They were exciting… Plus no one I knew really had one yet…

So when I went to open my gifts on my birthday I was convinced my parents bought me one…

As I prepared to open the last gift, I kept thinking, “The packaging is too small for a camera. Maybe it’s just super small and sleek.”

But the more I tore back the paper the more and more I was disappointed to find a small, black jewelry box…

On inside was the most beautiful necklace I’ve ever received… A heart with alternating diamonds and sapphires… It was a stunning piece… Something my parents wanted me to have as a sign of maturity since I was turning 16…

But there I sat… Trying to be as “excited” as I could be… But then on the inside I was full of disappointment because I didn’t receive what I wanted at all…

Now it’s taken me a few years and a lot of maturity to realize that that necklace is something I appreciate dearly… It’s so precious to my heart and soul… Especially now that my dad is gone…

But something that makes it even more valuable are the lessons it’s taught me throughout the years…

To me it is a symbol of identity because it’s filled with sapphires fitting for my birthday month of September… But then it’s also come to help me accept deeper revelation God has taught me about who I am in Him… Who He’s created me to be and sees me as in His eyes…

Now today I sit in life… Completely disappointed with what God keeps handing me… I want adventure… I want to live… In so many ways, I keep expecting to unwrap a digital camera type of life from Him… Something that let’s me go free from this chapter I am in…

But upon opening everything He’s given me I seem to discover something that’s actually very different… Something that resembles my diamond and sapphire necklace… Something filled with precious value and meaning and identity… Something that He has decided I am mature enough for…

Now my heart is touched by His constant gift of shaping me and molding me into who He needs me to be… But then my soul is severely disappointed because I wanted what was cool, hip and ever evolving…

So I’m left with these questions in mind… What happens when you don’t get what you so desperately want in life, but you do get what you so apparently need? How do you respond to it? How do I continue to make sense of this time in life where I feel somewhat angry and disappointed because I want God to give me what I want, not what I need? How can I be at peace with the fact that He is providing me with what’s of value, not what is easy to come by because it’s part of our current culture? And… How do I actually embrace, “If God sees me mature enough for these gifts, I must be. Even though I don’t feel it or see it or clearly see it at all?”