I promised myself I'd pursue more of God's love ... I promised myself I'd pursue more of His love so the brokenness inside of me would mend and I could be made whole. But I haven't known where to start. And then He spoke to me. He spoke to me and gave me a simple… Continue reading Is It Fixed Yet?
"Amanda, we slayed that giant in your life. Don't you remember? Why are you stepping back into the fight with it again? Leave it alone. It's dead in your life." Over the past 24 hours I've heard nothing but that type of conversation from the Holy Spirit... A constant reminder that my past was fought… Continue reading The Giant is Dead
Anger has been coursing through my veins lately... And while I do realize that the anger is only really harming me, I don't want to make peace with it. Instead, I keep hoping that it will eventually touch the person I'm angry with and make that person feel pain too. Life just feels so unfair… Continue reading End the Anger
I laid in bed the night before last and wanted to cry because I felt so weak... So emotional... So caught in the chaos and frustration of life. Now, don't get me wrong. Life is good. Life is very, very good. But... Sometimes I just want to cry. Sometimes I do cry. I cry about… Continue reading I Cry
Everything with God feels like a challenge lately. Every part of following His plan for my life continues to come with unscalable walls that I can't seem to bust through without His help. And the past two weeks... The past two weeks have had my spirit and soul deeply wondering what I’m truly doing and… Continue reading She Can’t Be Moved
I'm not one to wallow and get down about life and what I've lost, but lately I've found myself missing my dad more than I can explain. It's sometimes unsettling the way he's constantly on my mind, and then I'm forced to think about my reality. My mind begins to remind me that death happened,… Continue reading Thanks Death
Do you know what I think about a lot? I think about healing... I think about health. I think about the reality that Jesus gave all who believe the power and authority to heal the sick and speak life into the dead. And then I think about us... I think about me. I think, "Amanda… Continue reading Authority
Can I tell you the truth? I’ve been purchasing a lie with my free will for most of my life. What’s the lie? Well I’ve been led to believe I can’t be whole and complete without a relationship... And if you really know me then you’ll understand that I’ve wanted to find someone, be married… Continue reading Death of a Lie
What happens when you realize the anger you're feeling towards God is really just your misinterpretation of Him?.. That's where I've been for 3 days now... A place of discovery... A place of humility... A place where being teachable is necessary for moving forward... Because there's an area of God's personality that I thought I… Continue reading After the Anger…
I've heard it said at least a thousand times now, "Time... Time will help you heal from the death and great absence of your father.. Time will make it easier to live without him"... And I hate to be the barer of bad news... But... Time, I'm sorry... You haven't been my source of healing...… Continue reading Time… A Healer?