capacity · courage · cultivation · humility · keep moving forward · mature · overcome · Perseverance

The Gumption to Overcome

For the past few weeks, I’ve been thinking about the topic of overcoming. I’ve been mulling over it in my spirit and soul, aiming to connect to truth to help me move forward. After much thought and consideration, I sat down with Holy Spirit and asked Him. I said, “Will you teach me how to be better at overcoming? I am struggling in my soul with pressing past this moment of maturity.” 

Holy Spirit responded back, “Remember last Saturday when you were absolutely ready to quit? You walked around in tearful circles all day, feeling weighted down by what your soul sees and thinks, verses what your spirit sees and believes. And then, then at 10:30 pm your human spirit said, ‘No, we will keep pushing the boundaries of this soul. We will keep going because we have the capacity and the capability to keep going.’

So, you see overcoming is more for the soul, than the spirit. Human spirits (like yours) that are developing, growing and maturing with Me are actually very good at overcoming. They aren’t operating from a place of immaturity so they will eventually overcome through the strength of their maturity. They see the wealth Heaven has and they are prepared to take that next step in faith and watch the path appear. But so often here, the soul struggles. The soul gazes at the world around it and thinks, ‘I’ve come this far. I don’t want to go any further because it will be difficult.’ The soul wrestles with stepping out into faith because the soul will be required to grow more, to evolve and change. There is always much more ahead for the soul in terms of catching the new wave that’s coming from the spirit.

Overcoming is the ability to keep going, to endure, to persevere up until the last push where you move up and over that hill, mountain or obstacle in front of you. It requires a certain measure of fortitude and gumption from the spirit and the soul. They must work in tandem with each other and with the needs of Heaven. Those who overcome are like a rock that can’t be moved. They are a pillar in the kingdom that is sturdy and steady and ready for whatever might come around the corner and try to push them over. Actually, overcomers can’t be pushed over. They’ve summitted the mountain and now they have the knowledge, understanding, wisdom and revelation to go forward. 

Overcomers defy logic because they are faithful in believing in the unseen realms of life. They are truly part of My plan to move the heavens and the earth. To bring heaven into the earth realm. An overcomer is a special type of person, Amanda. Lots of people toss the word overcomer around, but they are few and far between because so much fortitude is needed to cultivate into one.” 

I asked, “What does an overcomer look like in the spirit?” He said, “Oh, they are majestic in the way that their spirit glitters and glistens. They have a stamina and aura about them that is concentrated in My glory. They know that it is because of Heaven and the faithfulness of the Lord that they’ve made it to the place of finishing… To the place of overcoming. They also speak differently than most. They have a sound that comes from their mouths that radiates the frequency of life and of courage. I see them as someone I can immensely trust with the things of My kingdom. I have a strong affiliation for them.”

Then I asked, “What level of humility is required in overcoming? I feel that it is a bedrock for the overcomer.” He said, “Good question. Very good question. Humility is such a special language of the overcomer. Knowing when and when not to speak is so vital. They must not multiply and sow seeds of slander, death, unbelief, confusion, doubt or anger.

Humility is the bedrock of the overcomer because they have the capacity to rise again the next day. They have the agility within them that says, ‘I am not there yet, but I will get there. I must just keep going.’ They are very used to failure upon failure. They are used to trying it a million and one times until they get it right. They aren’t afraid of failing or the process one takes to reach any given destination. They’ve pretty much sold out to waking up every day with the gumption to go.”

Then I left the conversation. I mediated on overcoming more and found myself thinking about my significant weight loss of 100-pounds 14 years ago. Choosing to keep moving forward was challenging for me in that season. I didn’t want to keep going. There were moments when I wanted to give up and just throw in the towel. But you know I always felt this overwhelming feeling deep down inside of me. I remember being 20-years-old, laying on the floor next to the treadmill in my parent’s house. As I laid there in pools of sweat, my soul overwhelmed with getting “there,” I felt my spirit move deep down inside of me. She believed I had what it took to keep going. So, I did.

In the midst of these thoughts, I heard Holy Spirit say, “Amanda, do you see? You can overcome your present obstacles because you have a track record with overcoming. You’ve risen above the desires of your soul and finished the race so many times. Overcoming isn’t new to you. It’s more so different now because of the expanse and growth of your spirit. Greater responsibilities are being asked of you, so your soul must expand to meet them. Your human spirit, is capable of the expanse though. It is capable of expanding far past the outer reaches of what it knows. 

Jesus was the ultimate overcomer. He not only went to the cross, but He did it after He was in the garden of Gethsemane taking on the sin, iniquity and transgression of mankind. He did that and THEN He had the gumption to go to the cross. He had the strength, capability and capacity to do an extremely challenging thing and then cross paths with the next one, which was the cross.

Which is why overcoming should be a lifestyle of the maturing child of God. It is a marker of maturity. A marker that says, ‘I am now stepping into the next thing because I am overcoming.” 🌱

complain · keep moving forward · Perseverance · soul · Spirit · weary

Onward & Upward: Pressing Past the Soul

I am weary, God. I am very weary. I don’t enjoy this process of maturity that asks me to keep climbing upwards. It is a high peak where we are going. My soul doesn’t like this. My soul wants to give up and walk away. I don’t like this at all.

Holy Spirit said, “Okay… Are you finished? Are you finished whining and complaining about what I told you would be challenging? I prepared you for this. I forewarned you of this climb upward. I told you this would take effort and that you would have to keep your eyes steadily on me at all times. I gave you what you need to climb. I gave you a harness and all of the necessary items. I didn’t send you unprepared. I would never send you unprepared. I told you to let go and rest if you needed to. I told you to just hang there for a moment and catch your breath. 

Amanda, I see your soul. I see that it is in its own form of self-induced anguish because it wants to be somewhere else right now. But you must keep climbing. You two must keep going. You must not give up now. Too much is at stake. Look at all of the things I’ve opened up for you. Look at the connections I’ve given you.

So, tell your soul to stop being such a whiner. Tell it to close its mouth. Tell it to sit down and wait for further instruction. There are many ways I will have you use your soul this week, but complaining isn’t one of them. 

Now… Now forge a path forward with today. Take the steps down the path I’ve laid out for you and do not be afraid. Do not lose hope.”

And, with that, Holy Spirit said, “Call George (my chief angel) forward. So, I did. George said, “What do you need?” I said, “I need to know how to move forward in this delicate moment.” He said, “Amanda, who said it was delicate? We (the angels) already did the work. You must just cross paths with it all now. You must embrace every single day with a heart that is ready to tackle the contents of each item you’ve been assigned to create this year. Trust Heaven. You two (my sister and I) must lean heavily into Heaven in this new year. You must rely on us in ways you’ve never relied on us before. We are all here. 100% accessible. 

Amanda, the power struggle between your spirit and soul is good because, as you keep choosing to go, you begin to realize how vitally important it is to walk in the light and the life that it brings you. 

Amanda, growing weary is for those leading from their souls. Your soul will always grow weary. It isn’t designed to lead. The soul isn’t a leader, so it loses steam very, very quickly. This is one of the reasons your world has so many ill people. Running about with worry, anxiety, stress and fear… They lead from their souls, rather than following their human spirit, who should be following Holy Spirit. 

You are able to fully engage the contents of the day when you chose to let your soul sit back and rest until it is needed. There is always a time and a place for the soul, but that time and place is after the spirit has received a direction for forward movement. From there you can move with the soul. But until then, your spirit… Your spirit must be in the lead, growing with us… Growing with Holy Spirit… Growing with Heaven. Your spirit must be prepared to receive the next step, so then it can hand the step to your soul. And, then your soul can work to bring that step forward in the earth.

Let me tell you something about the soul… The soul is very swayable. It can be swayed by the darkness. It can be conned into believing that the darkness is chief and supreme. It can start to believe lies, manipulation and deception very quickly. If your spirit isn’t plugged into Holy Spirit and constantly receiving peace, love and joy from the realm of Heaven, then your soul can’t be renewed. The soul must be renewed through the spirit. Having the mind of Christ is following after the spirit’s lead above all.

Amanda, people need to hear this. They need this so, so much. This year will be two things. It will either be dark or light. For those walking in the dark, expect them to be drawn into the darkness more if they do not meet the Father. For those in the light, expect them to draw closer to Heaven. Then there are also those in false light, which could go either way. Watch for that.” 🌱

capacity · change · follow · gift · keep moving forward · mature · Perseverance

Gifts for the Mountain of Maturity

Last Tuesday, Holy Spirit presented me an endless pile of gifts. I saw them in the spirit, wrapped in white paper with giant pink bows and received them with open arms. He told me most of the gifts were locked and needed a key. I asked if I could start opening the gifts that don’t have keys. He said, “Yes.” So, I opened the first one. It was a harness. He said, “The mountain you’ve been climbing is about to get steep. You need this harness. It will ensure your protection and security.” So, I put the harness on. Then, I saw a rope, a hook and a helmet. The angels handed them to me. Holy Spirit said, “You need all of these items to climb to the place, to the top of where you’re going. Yes, it’s steep, but you are protected from an impending fall. You’re protected from hitting the ground. If you come loose from the side of the mountain, grasp hold again and climb. There is a top. There is a peak coming. It’s ahead. You need these gifts to help make the summit easier.” Then I saw a light on the helmet. Holy Spirit said, “The light lets you know you won’t always be climbing in the daylight. You’ll need to keep going through the night. Keep persevering even when you want to stop. If you want to rest, just hang there for a moment on the rope, lean into My goodness and strength and catch your breath. Then keep moving forward.”

Before I could ask Him about the mountain, I saw gloves. He said, “I’ve noticed your thoughts lately. You keep thinking your hands feel weak and tired. These gloves will give your hands the strength they need to keep pulling you up the mountain.” I said, “The gloves look just like my hands. They are a literal copy of my flesh.” He said, “Yes, but they give you strength. Don’t mind their appearance. It is good and necessary. Oh, and one more thing!” Then I saw a tube of lipstick. I laughed, and said, “This seems silly. Why is it here?” He said, “Put it on. It will amplify your voice as you go so others hear you when you speak. It’s forever stay too. You don’t have to reapply it. It just lasts. Everlasting.”

Immediately after receiving the gifts, I asked, “What is this mountain I am climbing?” Holy Spirit said, “The mountain of maturity.”

Then I asked, “How will I change?” He said, “Remember the other day when you had the thought, ‘I don’t know who I see when I look at myself in the mirror? I am changing again and I can see it.” I said, “Yes, I remember.” He said, “Okay, well it’s because you’re stepping into a higher elevation of maturity. Maturity that solely belongs to you. That’s where you’re headed. It’s maturity that’s been marked out for you for a long time. And you’re coming into it now. Best part? You aren’t late growing into it. You’re right on time. 100% on time for this.”

Now, I am tired in so many ways right now. Following Holy Spirit’s lead takes a lot of dedication: spirit, soul, heart and body. And yes, yes, my soul has stepped back in a tremendous way and relied on a place of rest while my spirit takes the lead; however, I am still tired of moving towards what seems like an endless summit to the top of all He’s laid before me.

Still, I put on the harness and gear I need to climb up the steep peak. And, I don’t know what to climb up will entail yet. I don’t know how it will push me and force me to come into a place of full growth. I am kind of nervous, but also very assured with the truth that God has provided me with what I need to climb up. 

I am actually so assured that I asked my angels about the mountain. They’ve been very quiet for the past few weeks. Every time I engage them to converse, they let me know that they can’t speak. They are very busy. However, two days ago, I heard Topucca (my lead advancing angel—who is on assignment to advance the plans of the Kingdom of God into the earth). He came forward. I said, “Where have you been? I haven’t spoken to you in so long. It’s been weeks.” He said, “Yes, I know we’ve been very, very busy. There’s a lot happening in the heavens and earth right now. It’s very good. Don’t pay much attention to the optics you see coming out of the media. Leave it alone. Stay focused on the Father. In Him and through Him all things stand and are new. 

Amanda, God has been prepping your heart for a new level of maturity. It is very good. The gifts He gave you yesterday for this next phase of the climb are good. You need them to summit. They will help you. Remember, the gifts are there to catch you when you begin to feel tired or like you might fall. Also, listen to me. Capacitate. It’s time to capacitate again. It’s time to allow the Father to stretch you into a new dimension of life. You will need this dimension going into the new year. Giants will… Let me repeat myself… Giants will fall next year. It’s time for them to come down all over the world. Specifically in realms you’ve been pursuing.”

Now, I haven’t a clue where you are in your track of cultivation right now. I don’t know how Holy Spirit is working with you to refine, develop, grow and mature every ounce of potential and gifting He’s placed inside of you. But, I do know that He is wanting to provide all of us with the gifts and materials needed to keep moving forward. So where ever you are, pursue His heart, lean into what the Kingdom has for you and then do not be afraid to use what He’s given to it’s full potential. I know I will! 🌱

assignment · challenge · cultivation · follow · forerunner · grow · keep moving forward · Perseverance

Run Hard

“Run Hard. Persevere. Keep Moving Forward.” I tell myself these things every single day. They are the inner motivation I need to remain constant and consistent to the path I’m walking down with Holy Spirit. And the motivation is good. It does help me press forward in moments where I could become complacent; however, I do wonder…. 

What overwhelms you the most about following Holy Spirit’s lead? Is it acquiring the focus to listen to Him and then drawing near to truly hear what He’s saying? Or, do you find yourself challenged to discern and understand what He’s spoken and the direction He’s pointing you in because you’re conflicted between what your spirit believes versus how your soul might be interpreting? Or, are you like me… Finding yourself in several tough moments where you hear Him and understand Him, but don’t necessarily want to move forward because it’s going to require you to really endure more challenging moments than before?

I’ve been in a sprint for what seems like three months now. I’ve been in a moment that’s caused me to really press in and run as hard as I can with the direction of Holy Spirit, while pulling from Heaven as I need it. And the sprint has been good. The sprint has actually produced several significant breakthroughs, followed by a flow of revelation, wisdom and understanding that I didn’t have before; however, the sprint… The run hard moment has also left my soul feeling weary because it still wrestles with submitting to my spirit and operating from a place of rest, while my spirit paves the way forward in the sprint.

And though I can’t really share the reasons I am sprinting right now, I can tell you I do hear Holy Spirit, my angels and a vast cloud of witnesses like never before. I do hear all of their voices and input about how I can really become great at sprinting in moments where I am aiming to cultivate the mental toughness to arrive on time at the end of the sprint, gaining everything I’ve been pursuing for the Kingdom of God.

Yesterday, after making a business decision that will advance things greatly, I heard Holy Spirit say, “I see you’re here seeking direction. Remember Heaven will give you everything you need. We will make it look flawless. The run hard moment was for this moment. I know you are so weary in your soul from this journey. I see all of the hope deferred inside of you. I see your longings and I hear your cries. Amanda, I haven’t forgotten about you, but you must not cave in right now. Rise above what your soul is feeling. Rise above it and access the faith of your spirit. Access the divine nature of your spirit. Do not be afraid of it at all. It is so useful and helpful for such a time as this. I know this journey has been long and filled with seasons of disappointment, delay and frustration, but you must… I repeat you must keep moving forward. Always. That is My order to you. Do not be afraid either. There’s nothing to fear.”

And I don’t know if you are challenged with following Holy Spirit; however, I am here to encourage you to keep going. Don’t give up on the plans He’s laid before you and the path He’s placed you on. Be brave in moments where He’s leading you into more levels and layers of refinement so that you can come forth ready and willing to develop, mature and grow into all that He has for you. And, most importantly (I have to tell myself this a lot), remember that following Holy Spirit is a lifestyle. It’s a cultivated lifestyle. We are all in different lanes with Him according to the assignments He’s created for us. We are all growing and maturing at different rates. Each one of us has different layers of iniquity or past moments of darkness that try to hold us back from moving forward, but it’s okay because His grace divides the darkness of who we are and who we’ve been from who we are truly meant to be. Also, we aren’t in a race with each other. This isn’t a competition where we compare our growth rates and patterns. Instead, we are following Him to continue to help reveal the Kingdom of Heaven in the earth. And some days seem easier than others. But, more than anything, be encouraged to just keep going. Do not become stagnant in your spiritual walk. And please, find a community of people that are open to helping you mature and grow into every ounce of destined potential Heaven has written and recorded about you. 🌱

angels · cultivation · expansion · faith · frequency · keep moving forward · relationship

Lean In A Bit Closer

“That vibration you hear is me. I know you hear the frequency coming from me.” 

I knew the angel speaking to me was telling the truth. The high-pitched sounds and vibrations I hear have only increased in the past six months. For a while I thought the sounds were just Holy Spirit, but the angel speaking to me made it very clear that it was him. 

When I hear the frequency of Heaven, I hear a vibration. The room gets very loud and very full, but not in a chaotic way. It’s not like the sound a car makes when the base is turned up loud. But it is what you would think light might sound like if it could speak. It’s a piercing sound. A piercing sound that has a direct target. It’s on a mission to cut straight forward and deliver revelation and truth. It feels clean. Very clean and very pure. It’s not overwhelming in a dark or negative way, but it is very large and significant in nature. 

And the frequency really gets stronger when I hear Holy Spirit and one specific advancing angel speak to me. This one specific angel, his name is Topucca. I know it sounds different. It sounded different to me the first time he said it. But the energy and presence of God surrounding him is really, really strong and sharp. I mean, I sometimes feel like my room is beaming with intense force because his presence is so large. Like even right now, while I am writing, he feels so close.

Now, I don’t know what your thoughts are about what I’m sharing; however, I am here to motivate you to cultivate a deeper connection with the spirit realm around you. But before I do, I want to remind you to invite your spirit forward and tell your soul to sit back and relax. It’s good to do this because it ensures our spirit is leading and receiving what’s being communicated, rather than allowing the soul to try and hash out what it “thinks.” After all, we are a spirit, with a heart and a soul all incased within a body.

Okay, now that our spirits are leading, I want to share a conversation I had with my lead angel. 

I called George forward to speak with him and commission him to help me with some work. I immediately saw him picking fruit again. I said, “You pick fruit a lot, G.” He said, “Yes, it’s my primary job, to pick the fruit. To harvest it. The trees in your garden are really giving off so much right now. I’ve been taking buckets and buckets full of fruit to the storehouse every day. This is where you can find me if I’m not fighting a war or battle, I’ll be here, tending to your garden. I love the garden. Your spirit loves the garden.”

Now, I want to ask you a question. What does your spirit think about conversations with Heaven? How do you feel about talking to God? Does He talk back? And if He does, who do you hear? Holy Spirit? The Father? Jesus? Or, are you diverse in your connections, hearing and communicating with all three of them? Can you hear other created beings of Heaven speaking? Can you sense when an angel is near? If so, do you have the faith to ask them for assistance?

You see I am sharing my stories and asking these questions because Heaven is pleading for us to partner with it right now. It’s begging for us to let go of our distractions and engage it for solutions and forward movement. If you can see the evil and wickedness increasing in the earth, then you should feel very, very, very encouraged because there is a process and a system to combat it all. There are many Heavenly avenues of trade and communication open to us in this very moment. Avenues of trade and communication that have been sealed up until recently. They are open and ready for us to engage them and work with them.

And if this sounds completely strange or different to you, good! I feel like I wake up in a new world everyday with more things to learn and explore than I knew from the day before. The resources of the Kingdom of God are endless! So please, do not limit yourselves. Drop your distractions and excuses and lean in a little bit closer. 🌱

keep moving forward · power · vulnerability · warfare

The Responsibility

My goal as a writer for the past 8-10 years has always been centered around having the vulnerability to share the inner workings of myself and my relationship with God. To give a first-hand, in the moment account of a cultivated life. My heart is always aiming to demonstrate how Holy Spirit is working to refine and restore parts of me, as He pushes me towards deeper levels of development, maturity and growth.

Some days (like today) I struggle. I struggle with the inner cultivation of myself and how I should communicate it properly. 

Which is why embellishing on my current reality feels more challenging than usual. So please, try to follow what I’m expressing.

The perseverance it’s taken to reach today hasn’t been a cake-walk. The spiritual and mental determination to keep moving forward with the plans of God has felt, at times, utterly impossible from my soul’s perspective. People often say to me, “You’re so strong to keep going… To stay so committed to following Holy Spirit with such a submissive heart.” And while it’s true, it does require strength… None of the strength I’m using belongs to me. I’ve actually asked God for it because I know I need His power, strength and grace to empower all of me: spirit, soul, heart and body. Without eternal reliance and relationship with Him, I am weak and broken. 

Right now, I am learning that perseverance is much more challenging when you’re in a place of persevering (in several areas: personally, and in business), only for God to come and say, “Amanda, here is the next step. Except for this step is less of a step and more of a paradigm shifting way of operating in My kingdom. It will actually make the steps you’re taking seem more effortless, but you must apply it.”

Of course, a more effortless route is so appealing, but then I sit back and consider the responsibility and the serious learning curve I’ll need to submit to in order for this to become a component of my lifestyle. 

And that… That is my hang up… The responsibility.

But you know… I cannot become overwhelmed by the thought of the responsibility. I cannot become consumed with the hard work and training that will have to take place in order for this to become a facet of my lifestyle. I cannot embrace the lies I hear about how difficult this will be because then I will empower the liar. And I certainly cannot embrace fear, doubt or unbelief in any way because then I will begin to lose my strength and authority to cultivate this reality. 

And I don’t know if I am making complete sense, but my soul keeps saying, “If you obey God, then this path you’ve been paving and persevering down is going to be absolute hell! It’s going to be so heavy and exhausting to blaze forward!” 

However, God’s given the instruction. And He’s not asking for my opinion about it. No, He wants my complete submission and obedience to the instruction no matter how my soul feels about it. Which means, even if I don’t love the idea of another responsibility, I became responsible the moment He gave me the instruction. So, I must step forward and simply obey. He has and He will continue to supply the power, strength and grace needed for the responsibility at hand. 🌱

authority & dominion · heart · keep moving forward · power · Spirit

Locked Out!

Remember the violent spiritual behavior I shared with you last week? Remember how I said Holy Spirit said, “Do not buy what he is selling with your own free-will. Stand firm. Stand your ground. You are on holy ground. Do not step into torment or accept it”?

Okay, well since then the torment and warfare have significantly increased. At times, it’s constant, and I seem to be encountering it from all different angles. Mentally and emotionally, I keep encountering seeds of fear, doubt and unbelief. It’s as if they’ve been strategically sprinkled along the path I’m walking down as a giant distraction from the goal I am pursuing with Holy Spirit. Physically… Physically, I keep encountering headaches, chest pains, nausea, random pain that moves all over my body and does not make any sense. And then of course there are the random bruises. (Remember, we are in a spiritual war first and foremost. And the spiritual very much leaks into the tangible. Also, my body is completely healthy. I am not in any way physically sick, so please do not misinterpret what I am saying).

And while all of this feels like a lot, then I find myself encountering my once beloved past. And the past, which God has restored, redeemed and refined, really tries it’s best to weave itself into the bedrock of my heart. It tries to find a way to make me believe I should still feel angry, disappointed and all together completely hateful.

Now, the unfortunate reality about the torment and warfare is that I keep buying into it. On multiple occasions I’ve actually picked up the seeds of fear, doubt and unbelief and walked down the path with them some. However, they are so heavy and full of obvious evil (kind of like a horcrux from Harry Potter) that I have to completely abandon them and keep walking. I’ve actually stopped myself in the midst of a breakdown and said, “No. No, I am not buying this. God has given me a spirit of love, power and a sound mind. Not a spirit of fear, doubt and unbelief.” And then I asked my human spirit to come forward, and she almost laughed with joy when I felt her. And then she said, “Amanda, we are fine. We are on a solid path of provision, led and guided by Holy Spirit. Stop letting your soul buy into fear. You soul is to be submissive to me as I am submissive to Holy Spirit.”

So, I pulled myself together and marched forward. 

But you know what I’ve realized? The kingdom of darkness and all of its evil don’t have dominant territory over my life anymore. They’ve been losing significant power over the years as I’ve followed Holy Spirit down a path of healing, freedom and restoration through Jesus. And because they don’t have dominant territory, they are completely locked out of my heart. Actually, I keep finding myself, on multiple occasions, laughing with joy because I know I am at a threshold moment. A moment where they can try to get in and divide the work God has done in me, but they will not be successful because there’s too much life and truth coursing through the essence and frequency of my entire being. 

And I don’t know who needs to hear this, and I don’t know if anyone reading this relates, but you should stand your ground against fear, doubt and unbelief. Especially if you’ve gained freedom. Stand your ground and remind the enemy that he doesn’t have a legal right to come in anymore. He doesn’t have the authority to trespass in your life anymore. He’s been locked out! His power has dwindled down to that of seeds on the ground that he has to lay out strategically. There isn’t any more spiritual entanglement. What he’s doing is a ruse. It’s a con. A way for him to get us to quit so that we cannot move forward into the plans and purposes God has ordained for right now. 

And if you haven’t experienced spiritual freedom, I want to encourage you to seek it out. Dive deep into areas of your life that still feel oppressed. Ask God to provide you with the faith needed to stand up to the fear, doubt and unbelief you’re experiencing. And, if you feel that all of this runs deeper, never abandon the reality that the entanglement might actually run deep within the veins of your spiritual bloodline. A spiritual bloodline that can be cleansed, redeemed and restored so that you can stand firm in moments like I am in right now, reminding the darkness, “You are completely locked out!” 🌱

keep moving forward · Mind · power · warfare

Violence

The past three days or so I’ve felt a growing sense of violence surrounding me. Like I can’t breathe because I feel an extreme measure of torment pursuing my heart and soul. And I’ve never been a depressed type, but I do feel a very sudden and extreme sense of hopelessness weighing me down.

Of course I’ve been questioning, “What the actual hell is going on? Why do I suddenly feel this way? What’s the root? Where is this coming from and how do I cut the source off and prevent another wave from coming?”

So, after literally willing myself out of bed this morning, I sat and pondered the source. And then I found it. Friday. Friday there was a clear and direct deposit in the spirit from Holy Spirit. A deposit that gave my sister and I a direct conclusion for a project we’ve been faithfully working on. And, from that point, the enemy of my soul began to enact his plan, shifting my focus from God’s deposit to his own deposit of extreme doubt, fear and hopelessness. I actually sat on the end of my bed yesterday crying because I couldn’t seem to switch off the aimed frequency causing the mental and physical torment I felt.

After gaining the source, I began to feel somewhat better so I asked Holy Spirit, “What do I do now?” He said, “Call your human spirit forward.” So, I did. And I asked her what was up. Her response, “The enemy of your soul is trying to make you quit. He would like you to focus on the tangible world around you and cause you to exist from a soulish playing field of life. He’s trying to divide your spirit and your soul, while creating confusion and torment from within.” 

After my human spirit was finished speaking, I turned back to Holy Spirit for direction. He said, “Divine alignment is happening in the spirit concerning the project. Don’t take your focus off of Me. I told you the Fall would be messy but to remain focused on Me. There’s been a new release concerning this project you are working on. The accuser is after you. If he can get you to fold, he can get the entire project to fold. Tell him no. Tell him you aren’t interested in whatever he is selling. Tell him you choose to operate with love, power and a sound mind. Not fear. Do not buy what he is selling with your own free-will. Stand firm. Stand your ground. You are on holy ground. Do not step into torment or accept it.”

And I’m sharing this because it’s vital to be reminded of the violent nature of the power we combat in the spirit. It’s essential to see that complete submission to Holy Spirit followed by consistent forward movement creates great stress and fear inside of the kingdom of darkness’s camp. And it’s extremely necessary that we pull ourselves closer to Holy Spirit, determine the root of the enemies plan, devise a scheme with Holy Spirit to fight back and then KEEP MOVING FOWARD towards the goal He’s placed in front of us.

And I know that it is challenging. We live in unprecedented times. However, we must keep our eyes focused on the path He’s placed before us, rather than the violence aiming to take us under and consume the divine culture and quality of our spiritual nature. 🌱

keep moving forward · soul · Spirit

Faith for the Mountain

I love this time of the year. God’s supernatural window is open in an extraordinary way as He pulls Himself closer to us. And you know I found myself sitting with Him this morning, discussing a list of projects that lay before me, praying for a number of situations that need to come into divine alignment and also receiving some solid wisdom and gifting for forward movement.

And then… Then He said to me, “I want to give you My mountain of healing. I want to plant it in your heart. It is for you to share with others.” Then I immediately asked, “Is this mountain a seed, or is it like a potted plant, one that’s already semi-nurtured and developed, that needs to be planted on the grounds of my heart?” Then I saw what looked very similar to a tiny replica of Disney’s Magic Kingdom with roots hanging off of it. It was about the size of an engagement ring box. And He said, “It’s a plant. And I am going to plant it inside of you. You will share it with others. I will water it with My glory so it may grow.”

Hmmm… Interesting…

Now, I really don’t have the slightest clue what’s ahead. If I were to guess based on the boundaries of my soulish mind, I would say it will grow and become whatever He intends it to be. But then, I am also very aware that my human spirit’s superconscious mind and Holy Spirit can provide me with more answers than my soul can. 

So, I asked them. And I saw very clearly (but in way more details than I’m allowed to share) that His mountain of healing is going to be a cultivated journey of sorts with many highs and lows. Which does make me feel somewhat prepared, but then also causes me to embrace my reality… Which is that I’m going to have to use faith… Faith that I don’t have in this current moment will be needed to help this mountain grow.

And I believe it’s all together very exciting. It’s exciting to think, “WOW! I will have to step out into uncharted territory to watch this thing develop, mature and grow into what God intends it to be inside of me for others.”

Because what’s the point of believing in God, Jesus and the Kingdom of Heaven if we aren’t pushed to the limits in our relationships with them and the world around us? What’s the point to trusting if we aren’t perpetually thrust into a place of faith for the unseen every single day? What’s the point of saying, “Yes, I’ll submit and follow,” to only turn our attention back to the culture of the ever-evolving, illusive and enchanting “American Dream?” And as much as I enjoy the “ladder of so-called success,” what’s the point of climbing it if His heart, visions, dreams and purposes aren’t sewn into the very foundation of it all with a promise to produce a quality harvest of fruit on the other end? 🌱

challenge · keep moving forward · seasons

Seasonal Milestones

It’s dark, tight and completely isolated, but not in a divisive, evil or wicked way. More so in a deeply concealed and ingeniously crafted manner.

I am confident. I am strong. I firmly believe moving forward with great courage and tremendous hope is the only way now.

And I hear Him saying, “Run with perseverance. Run hard. Do not look to the left or to the right with jealousy, pride and covetous. Do not look behind in grief, disappointment and frustration. Do not look ahead with fear, unbelief and worry. Instead, run with perseverance. It’s going to take everything I’ve deposited in the depths of you to breakthrough into the next season.”

But then I do ponder past seasons… So intricately and carefully designed, they are eternal fuel firing from the depths of my spirit, heart and soul. They are calling me higher and propelling me forward.

Actually, the past seasons of refinement, development, maturity and growth appear to be indispensable and multifaceted gifts… Gifts that have actually morphed into the faith I need to keep picking up the assignment of forward movement. 

And I’m sharing this with you because I understand how challenging it is to hear Holy Spirit’s voice and then blindly follow His very unknown, uncertain and ever-evolving ways for years without breakthrough. I understand how challenging it can feel to wonder, “How much longer until we reach the promises You hold so dear to Your heart God.” But then I am also beginning to embrace that I’ve needed each season He’s led me to and led me through in the past. Because each season, each season is a milestone. Milestones filled with intricate chaos. Milestones dashed with process and progress. Milestones that have cultivated the very faith my spirit, heart and soul need to finish this leg of the race! 🌱 #cultivatelife