"But the disappointment God... It's SO heavy. I don't want to feel it anymore. I don't want to carry it anymore. Plus... Paired with the anger... The anger that's still consuming 10% of my heart... Well the anger really makes the disappointment feel all consuming at times." This is me. This is me working through… Continue reading For the Love of God
I don’t want to write. Honest to God, I don’t want to at all. It’s become somewhat of a challenge to keep moving forward in this area.But I must… I must mustard up what’s inside of me to get this done because it’s what Holy Spirit is asking. Which makes me wonder… Where is my… Continue reading What’s Going On In There?
If you know me well then you know I talk about the will of God A LOT! It’s really vital for me to continue to cultivate a space where I listen, He leads and I follow. And it’s become fairly simple to do these things; however, the one thing that CONSTANTLY gets me hung up… Continue reading Great Illusion
If deception called, would you pick up the phone and answer? If manipulation were to stare you in the eyes and claim to be “truth,” would you have the discernment to see THE truth? Deception and manipulation, at their highest levels, have been released. Do you see it? Can you feel it? Are you asking… Continue reading If Deception Calls, Will You Answer?
I see a throne... It’s high and mighty... But I’m struggling with it’s dethronement. Why? Well because I like the kingdom of lies my imagination has cultivated inside of my head. Actually, I’ve become so good at creating and buying false images that I sometimes get confused over what’s real and what’s false. You see… Continue reading Dethronement
One of my favorite movies is about a man hired to use a dream machine to plant an idea into the mind of another man... It’s called Inception. In one scene you find Leonardo DiCaprio (he’s the one hired to plant the idea) and his colleagues in a room full of sleeping people who are… Continue reading Inception
It's fixed. My heart... it's fixed. How do I know it's fixed? I know it's fixed because I moved forward in life. I spoke to the fear that was trying to convince me to not move forward. I told it to sit down and shut up. I told it that it no longer has power… Continue reading It’s Fixed!
I discovered a fear embedded deep within me. I discovered a fear embedded deep within me and it has to go. It has to go because I need to be free so I can move forward in life. You see I used to be very good about idolizing people. I used to place all of… Continue reading Without the Idol
"Amanda, we slayed that giant in your life. Don't you remember? Why are you stepping back into the fight with it again? Leave it alone. It's dead in your life." Over the past 24 hours I've heard nothing but that type of conversation from the Holy Spirit... A constant reminder that my past was fought… Continue reading The Giant is Dead
Can I tell you the truth? I’ve been purchasing a lie with my free will for most of my life. What’s the lie? Well I’ve been led to believe I can’t be whole and complete without a relationship... And if you really know me then you’ll understand that I’ve wanted to find someone, be married… Continue reading Death of a Lie