“I guess… I felt, well I felt deeply disrespected and devalued.” That’s what I told Holy Spirit this morning as He attempted to peel away another layer of my soul that’s sick and dying.You see I had a dream last night, and the dream reminded me of my past… My past where a significant amount… Continue reading Disrespected and Devalued
I had a dream about a month ago... I was standing in my living room and from the kitchen a dark figure was standing at my counter throwing knives, swords and other sharp objects at me. In the moment I didn’t know what to do.... So I reached my hand out and surprising caught each… Continue reading Sharp Objects
The unpaved path is rough. It’s lined with more obstacles, transition, pain, sacrifice and cultivation than I ever signed up for. I remember being a kid. I remember what I wanted in my heart. Then I remember the promises God gave me as I got older. I remember the words He spoke directly to my… Continue reading How Did I Become Her?
Pain is temporary if we’re open to healing. Pressure is good if we allow it to shape us in a life-giving way. Growth.... Growth is challenging. And a lifestyle of all three seems to be the challenge of all challenges. I told you God told me that all of my refinement, development, maturity and growth… Continue reading The Color Process
I promised myself I'd pursue more of God's love ... I promised myself I'd pursue more of His love so the brokenness inside of me would mend and I could be made whole. But I haven't known where to start. And then He spoke to me. He spoke to me and gave me a simple… Continue reading Is It Fixed Yet?
I laid in bed the night before last and wanted to cry because I felt so weak... So emotional... So caught in the chaos and frustration of life. Now, don't get me wrong. Life is good. Life is very, very good. But... Sometimes I just want to cry. Sometimes I do cry. I cry about… Continue reading I Cry
Remember a few months ago when I said I was doing a lot of "off road following" with God?.. Well, guess what?... We're still "off road" and I honestly have no idea where I'm going... Plus, to make things a little bit riskier, my "New Year's resolution" is to not plan... To not think ahead… Continue reading Painless Days
I've heard it said at least a thousand times now, "Time... Time will help you heal from the death and great absence of your father.. Time will make it easier to live without him"... And I hate to be the barer of bad news... But... Time, I'm sorry... You haven't been my source of healing...… Continue reading Time… A Healer?
Do you ever have those moments when you just want to shake life? Like literally pick it up shake it around and question why it's acting up?... Thats how I feel right now... Like I need to interigate life for it's actions... For the pain and injustice I feel... For the confusion and misunderstanding in… Continue reading Broken Comfort Zone..
There's something incrediblely fascinating to me about feeling alone... I think it's the reality that sometimes our experiences cause us to feel separated from others... Like we don't belong because life happened and now we feel less than unwanted and undesirable... Like we have to put up a shield of protection every time we enter… Continue reading Unwanted Soul…