The length of the season I’m in seems shorter than ever now. I do realize my path will eventually change course and evolve into something else. I don’t know when. I don’t know how. But I am certain. Now, in the midst of the certainty, there is great uncertainty. You see I am certain of… Continue reading Uncertain Growth
Category: refine
Delighted
I cried myself to sleep last night. And there’s nothing wrong with me in the least bit. Really and truly, I am healthy and seeking more inner refinement, development, maturity and growth daily. All of my needs are being met. I have more than enough and I feel very satisfied with where God is leading… Continue reading Delighted
The Vault
I was in the spirit yesterday morning, praying and talking to God like normal… All of a sudden I saw a large brownish/maroonish/whiteish marbled wall that spanned down a hallway. I didn’t know where I was, so I asked Holy Spirit. He said, “You’re in your Heavenly mansion, and I want to show you something… Continue reading The Vault
Capacitate
Yesterday, I caught myself looking very intently at old photos.... And they gripped me in such a way that I thought, "I don't even see myself in these photos anymore. The person I see in these photos is just an image... A mirage... A shell of me in a once lived life. A girl who was… Continue reading Capacitate
Reliability
After I lost my dad, one of my biggest challenges was the reality that I felt like there wasn't anyone there to take care of "me" anymore. For 25 years he was ALWAYS there... In my corner... Watching out for me... Protecting me from potential harm. So it was challenging to say the least to… Continue reading Reliability
Following Growth
Growth… Growth & I have a love/hate relationship. Wait… Let me rephrase that. Growth, as amazing as it is, feels like a antagonist in my life sometimes. Do I crave it? Sure I do! I crave growth and the results that come from following through with where I’m being led to develop and mature in… Continue reading Following Growth
Two Trees
I left social media. I didn’t deactivate my accounts, but I left... Promising myself I would return when I felt I could consume without being burdened by pride, hate, bitterness, anger, jealousy, grief and shame. That’s what social media does to me. I pick it up with the idea of “connecting” to “share” my world… Continue reading Two Trees
For the Love of God
"But the disappointment God... It's SO heavy. I don't want to feel it anymore. I don't want to carry it anymore. Plus... Paired with the anger... The anger that's still consuming 10% of my heart... Well the anger really makes the disappointment feel all consuming at times." This is me. This is me working through… Continue reading For the Love of God
Bitter-fully Good
Have you ever faced off with bitterness before? If so, then you'll understand the constant, alienating feeling of being "wronged." But, what happens when the bitterness you're experiencing is aimed at God? You see... I've been asking myself this question for two weeks now because He's called me to a higher level of obedience and… Continue reading Bitter-fully Good
Fully Grasp It
Do you wanna know what moving forward with Holy Spirit looks like for me right now? It's choosing to FULLY trust in everything He's cultivated inside of me. Yep... I feel challenged deep in my spirit to believe... To FULLY believe in the LIFE He's helped me refine, develop, nurture, mature and grow. And, honestly… Continue reading Fully Grasp It