complain · keep moving forward · Perseverance · soul · Spirit · weary

Onward & Upward: Pressing Past the Soul

I am weary, God. I am very weary. I don’t enjoy this process of maturity that asks me to keep climbing upwards. It is a high peak where we are going. My soul doesn’t like this. My soul wants to give up and walk away. I don’t like this at all.

Holy Spirit said, “Okay… Are you finished? Are you finished whining and complaining about what I told you would be challenging? I prepared you for this. I forewarned you of this climb upward. I told you this would take effort and that you would have to keep your eyes steadily on me at all times. I gave you what you need to climb. I gave you a harness and all of the necessary items. I didn’t send you unprepared. I would never send you unprepared. I told you to let go and rest if you needed to. I told you to just hang there for a moment and catch your breath. 

Amanda, I see your soul. I see that it is in its own form of self-induced anguish because it wants to be somewhere else right now. But you must keep climbing. You two must keep going. You must not give up now. Too much is at stake. Look at all of the things I’ve opened up for you. Look at the connections I’ve given you.

So, tell your soul to stop being such a whiner. Tell it to close its mouth. Tell it to sit down and wait for further instruction. There are many ways I will have you use your soul this week, but complaining isn’t one of them. 

Now… Now forge a path forward with today. Take the steps down the path I’ve laid out for you and do not be afraid. Do not lose hope.”

And, with that, Holy Spirit said, “Call George (my chief angel) forward. So, I did. George said, “What do you need?” I said, “I need to know how to move forward in this delicate moment.” He said, “Amanda, who said it was delicate? We (the angels) already did the work. You must just cross paths with it all now. You must embrace every single day with a heart that is ready to tackle the contents of each item you’ve been assigned to create this year. Trust Heaven. You two (my sister and I) must lean heavily into Heaven in this new year. You must rely on us in ways you’ve never relied on us before. We are all here. 100% accessible. 

Amanda, the power struggle between your spirit and soul is good because, as you keep choosing to go, you begin to realize how vitally important it is to walk in the light and the life that it brings you. 

Amanda, growing weary is for those leading from their souls. Your soul will always grow weary. It isn’t designed to lead. The soul isn’t a leader, so it loses steam very, very quickly. This is one of the reasons your world has so many ill people. Running about with worry, anxiety, stress and fear… They lead from their souls, rather than following their human spirit, who should be following Holy Spirit. 

You are able to fully engage the contents of the day when you chose to let your soul sit back and rest until it is needed. There is always a time and a place for the soul, but that time and place is after the spirit has received a direction for forward movement. From there you can move with the soul. But until then, your spirit… Your spirit must be in the lead, growing with us… Growing with Holy Spirit… Growing with Heaven. Your spirit must be prepared to receive the next step, so then it can hand the step to your soul. And, then your soul can work to bring that step forward in the earth.

Let me tell you something about the soul… The soul is very swayable. It can be swayed by the darkness. It can be conned into believing that the darkness is chief and supreme. It can start to believe lies, manipulation and deception very quickly. If your spirit isn’t plugged into Holy Spirit and constantly receiving peace, love and joy from the realm of Heaven, then your soul can’t be renewed. The soul must be renewed through the spirit. Having the mind of Christ is following after the spirit’s lead above all.

Amanda, people need to hear this. They need this so, so much. This year will be two things. It will either be dark or light. For those walking in the dark, expect them to be drawn into the darkness more if they do not meet the Father. For those in the light, expect them to draw closer to Heaven. Then there are also those in false light, which could go either way. Watch for that.” 🌱

angels · kingdom · power · soul · Spirit · warfare

Designed to Submit

Last night, as I was getting out of the shower, I heard “War will be waged tomorrow. Prepare for war.” So, I stopped all other thoughts in my mind and asked Holy Spirit, “What do I do?” He said, “Tell your sister. Consult your angels. Ready them for battle.” So, before I went to sleep, I asked my two head angels (George and Michael) what tools they needed to fight with. They gave me the list and I asked the Father for the tools be given to them. Holy Spirit also made it very clear that this would be a frequency war. So, I commissioned appropriately. 

Then I prayed protection. I commanded a spiritual faraday cage of gold (gold protects from spiritual frequency interference) to cover myself, my family and my businesses until the battle was over. I also saw the gold cage for the first time (I’ve been using it for 2 1/2 years)… It looked like a vibrant, shinning, bright, luminescent glow that encapsulated everything it was assigned to protect. Kind of like the piertotum locomotives spell used in Harry Potter to protect Hogwarts from dark magic.

When I woke up this morning, I felt rested. I called for my angel, George. I heard Holy Spirit say, “He’s out fighting.” So, I sat back and chatted with Holy Spirit. He continued to repeat over and over, “Your enemy is a defeated foe. The kingdom of darkness is a defeated foe. They know this. It is known. They know they don’t have the power the Heavens and I possess.

Amanda, this is how you overcome evil. Stay in the spirit, operating from your spirit, working from Heaven. It is possible, very possible, to operate from the spirit at all times like Jesus. It is a skill you must cultivate. You must keep training your soul to step back and focus in on what your spirit is doing. You must stay focused on what’s coming from the dimension above the 2nd Heaven… Above where your soul exists.”

And so, reality becomes clearer to me every day. If we aren’t living from our spirit first, we are submitting to a defeated kingdom. We are created to operate from our human spirit. To connect with Holy Spirit, Father God and Jesus. To connect with our angels and other consorts. To live from Heaven’s realm down into to the earth realm. But we are challenged to do this. We are very prevented from absorbing this truth because we fail to constantly and consistently operate from our spirit because the soul is easily distracted, deceived and swayed by the mirage and elusiveness of the world that surrounds us. It will in truth submit to one master or another. It will either submit to a defeated kingdom or the kingdom of God because that is its design, to submit.

Which is why we surely trade the peace and rest of our soul every time we purchase lies, deception, manipulation, fear, anxiety, worry and torment. However, if we focus our attention higher… If we tune into to Holy Spirit a little more… If we exercise the confidence and courage to invite the spirit to come forward, while commanding the soul to sit down… Then we are in business. Then we are in a position to receive assignments and focus our attention on the trading and multiplication of Heaven. Then we can truly operate as sons and daughters of God who are fulfilling their duties as kings and queens. Then we have more of an opportunity to govern over the defeated kingdom. 🌱

keep moving forward · soul · Spirit

Faith for the Mountain

I love this time of the year. God’s supernatural window is open in an extraordinary way as He pulls Himself closer to us. And you know I found myself sitting with Him this morning, discussing a list of projects that lay before me, praying for a number of situations that need to come into divine alignment and also receiving some solid wisdom and gifting for forward movement.

And then… Then He said to me, “I want to give you My mountain of healing. I want to plant it in your heart. It is for you to share with others.” Then I immediately asked, “Is this mountain a seed, or is it like a potted plant, one that’s already semi-nurtured and developed, that needs to be planted on the grounds of my heart?” Then I saw what looked very similar to a tiny replica of Disney’s Magic Kingdom with roots hanging off of it. It was about the size of an engagement ring box. And He said, “It’s a plant. And I am going to plant it inside of you. You will share it with others. I will water it with My glory so it may grow.”

Hmmm… Interesting…

Now, I really don’t have the slightest clue what’s ahead. If I were to guess based on the boundaries of my soulish mind, I would say it will grow and become whatever He intends it to be. But then, I am also very aware that my human spirit’s superconscious mind and Holy Spirit can provide me with more answers than my soul can. 

So, I asked them. And I saw very clearly (but in way more details than I’m allowed to share) that His mountain of healing is going to be a cultivated journey of sorts with many highs and lows. Which does make me feel somewhat prepared, but then also causes me to embrace my reality… Which is that I’m going to have to use faith… Faith that I don’t have in this current moment will be needed to help this mountain grow.

And I believe it’s all together very exciting. It’s exciting to think, “WOW! I will have to step out into uncharted territory to watch this thing develop, mature and grow into what God intends it to be inside of me for others.”

Because what’s the point of believing in God, Jesus and the Kingdom of Heaven if we aren’t pushed to the limits in our relationships with them and the world around us? What’s the point to trusting if we aren’t perpetually thrust into a place of faith for the unseen every single day? What’s the point of saying, “Yes, I’ll submit and follow,” to only turn our attention back to the culture of the ever-evolving, illusive and enchanting “American Dream?” And as much as I enjoy the “ladder of so-called success,” what’s the point of climbing it if His heart, visions, dreams and purposes aren’t sewn into the very foundation of it all with a promise to produce a quality harvest of fruit on the other end? 🌱

doubt · fear · heart · soul

Right Where I’m Supposed to Be

Over the past week or so my soul has been pushing me to cave and capitulate. I hear my thoughts. I feel my emotions. And they… They have decided that this jagged, uncomfortable path of stillness leading to God’s glory is just too much for them.

Now, I truly do not want to get off of the path. My spirit and my heart are truly dead set on the direction I’m being led; however, my soul… My soul gets really distracted sometimes. Actually, if I’m not conscious of and self-disciplined about what I’m feeding my soul, then it begins to get annoyed. It begins to lose sight of the goodness of God and the place of power, dominion and authority Holy Spirit has seated me in. 

And the annoyance… Well, it opens up an unwanted avenue of doubt inside of me. And then the doubt begins to conduct its full-fledged plan to captivate my heart. Actually, the doubt is so wise that it starts speaking to me about the past. It tries to remind me why I should choose to fear disappointment… “You’ve been so disappointed before. You stuck to the path, and people that you trusted very deeply and intimately with the things of God let you down. So, how do you know you won’t get disappointed again? Why would you keep trusting this path, Amanda? Why would you keep relying on the goodness of God and all of His promises and provision when you’ve been so deeply wounded before?”

But then… Then I hear Holy Spirit say, “Amanda, I am not human. I am God. I have never left you. Even in the depth of your brokenness, loss and deep insecurities, I was there offering up a strong pillar of hope and love to lean on. And, I will never leave you or disappoint your heart. So, keep putting your faith in Me. Keep your identity in the truth that you live from a place of right standing through Christ. Keep your eyes focused on the spirit realm. Keep your expectations on Me and on things flowing from above. I am always working. Even when you are completely still, I am working. Do not forget about My glory. This is the last and final stretch of this season. Bring it home! Do it well! Finish it completely with honor, dignity and respect. Do it from a place of incessant faith and trust in Me. Do not fear. Do not doubt. Do not live from a place of lack: spirit, soul, heart and body. Instead, live in the fullness of Me.”

And you know, when I hear Holy Spirit speak, well His confidence and assurance in Himself and in me, it really motivates and strengths me. It truly gives me the courage to silence my soul and focus my attention on where He’s leading me. Rather than on where distraction leads me. 

And I don’t know if you ever go through this. I don’t know if you can sort through yourself from the inside out and differentiate between the voice of your spirit, soul, heart and God’s. I don’t know if you can recognize when fear and doubt try their best to take advantage of your weaknesses while interloping themselves into the mix of voices within you. However, I hope you are willing to let Holy Spirit lead you into this place of maturity. I hope that when you feel overwhelmed with doubt and fear you can stop yourself and say, “My foundation is rooted in what flows from above. So, I am choosing to press past all of the noise and keep moving forward with where I am being led. I will reach the end of this challenging season with grace, confidence and complete assurance that I am exactly where I am supposed to be.” 🌱

authority & dominion · challenge · heart · keep moving forward · process · soul · weary

Weary for Nothing

“Ew… You’re whining and complaining again Amanda!! Remember, we’ve outgrown this place. And I know it’s challenging to understand where Holy Spirit is leading and why He’s pointing “that way next,” but we don’t whine and complain because of our heart and soul’s lack of understanding. Instead we power up the giftings and tools He’s equipped us with and move forward.”

And so… There it is… The continuous conversation I will have with myself until my heart and soul learn how align with my spirit and then persevere past this place of obvious weakness.

And I don’t know about you, but perseverance can be very exhausting. Which is why I found it very interesting when I heard Holy Spirit say, “I want you to be weary for nothing. You must come to a place in Me where you don’t become tired with moving forward. You must get up and go at all times.”

“Oh okay… Amazing. So you want me to ignore my soul’s weariness even though I am fully aware that I don’t know what “next” is. And you want me to do it in my 30s… A time when my entire life is laying before me and I still want to do what I want to do, but I won’t because my heart’s desire has become to fully follow You no matter what… Okay…. I will do it.”

It’s been like this with Him lately. He’s been opening up vast realms and dimensions of His Kingdom to me, all while pushing me to fully participate in them at once. Why? Well because I am an active player in His Kingdom. And, when you’re an active player (we all should be), you don’t get to go sit on the sidelines and rest when you’re tired. Instead, you keep moving forward when He says, “KEEP GOING.”

And so now you might be wondering, “Okay, Amanda… How do you move forward then? How do you find the energy, the will and the tenacity to stay His course?”

Well, first and foremost, I plug my human spirit into the presence of God as much as possible. Yeah, that’s right. I get into His presence and allow Him to pour more of His energy and power into me. And then… Then I operate from my human spirit as much as possible because it contains the energy, will and tenacity to keep going.

And it’s been a process to learn how to do this; however, I’ve learned that the more I allow my spirit to lead, the less likely my soul will scheme up an escape plan because my spirit’s strength outweighs my soul. And the more my heart aligns with the heart of Father God, the more confident, secure and at peace I become in my purpose in any given moment.

Also, cultivating a lifestyle that continually combats the kingdom of darkness has revolutionized my world and those around me. I just don’t give myself excuses anymore when it comes to spiritual warfare. Instead, I allow my spirit to be the “superhero” God intended her to be. I give her the reins when speaking to principalities, demons on assignment and demonic weaponized energy sources. I let her rule and reign from the throne God has entrusted her with, all while channeling what He’s deposited deep within.

And I know this might all sound weird; however, this is how I live. Actually this is how I’ve gradually lived as I’ve learned how to cultivate the lifestyle I am currently living from. And sure… Give it some time and there will be a higher level of where I am right now, but today… Today, we persevere. 🌱 #cultivatelife #keepmovingforward

complain · grow · heart · mature · soul

This is Who I Am

I sat down to pout. I sat down to sulk. I sat down to complain about how frustrated I felt. And then… All in one moment… I stopped myself. I stopped myself and said, “Amanda, you don’t do this anymore. You’ve outgrown this place where you get upset over things that are out of your control. You’ve moved past feeling overwhelmed with “the follow” and where He’s leading you. You no longer contain the capacity to roll your eyes and then sarcastically walk down a somewhat fearful, self-paved road screaming, “What’s next?!?!” You’ve reached a place of maturity and you MUST continually live in it!!!”

Yeah…. That was the inner dialogue between my spirit, heart and soul. My spirit reminding my heart and soul that we don’t sulk around anymore about where God is taking us. Instead, we suit up, take hold of His ever-evolving assignments and move forward like the Warrior Queen He’s been cultivating.

And I don’t know if this resonates with you at all; however, I’m learning that maturity is one of the most attractive virtues to possess because of its steadfastness. It’s just this grand assurance and unwavering confidence, rooted so deeply within that it billows out, “This is who I am!”

And sure, sure maturity seems as though it takes eons to cultivate; however, once we’ve entered that place… Once we’ve come into that promised land, well it’s as if the fruit is everlasting because we have the capacity to stop ourselves when parts of us want to act childish, self-centered or unruly. We can stop ourselves and say, “I’ve been down this road before and it doesn’t produce any good fruit, so I mustn’t go forward.” 🌱 #cultivatelife

focus · follow · keep moving forward · soul · Spirit

Sometimes No

Following the Holy Spirit can be simple…

Following the Holy Spirit can be fun…

Following the Holy Spirit can be a life-changing/life-altering adventure of sorts.

But…. Well, what about when He says, “no?” Why is it so challenging to repeatedly move forward when He says, “No. No. No. That’s not it. Keep moving forward. Keep focusing on Me and my ways. I know what I am doing. You must continue to trust me in EVERY area Amanda.”

And honestly… Honestly I HATE when His response doesn’t make sense at all. I hate when I can’t wrap my head around Him and His thoughts and ways. I hate when He can see ahead of me, but then won’t let me in on the design and details because it will stunt my refinement, development, maturity and growth.

But that’s true submission you know?

The ability to keep moving forward with Him, regardless of fully knowing or understanding the “why.”

And I don’t know where you are in your walk and follow with Him right now; however, I do believe following through with the “no” is just as vital as following through with the “yes.” Because, even though the “no” contradicts the souls wants, it also pulls us into a tighter, more intimate relationship with God. It shows that we will trust His ways… And then have peace within that trust no matter the outcome.

And… I don’t know about you, but who wouldn’t want to be closer to Him? 🌱 #cultivatelife

 

peace · rest · soul · stillness

And Then God Got Quiet

“And then God got quiet… And He stayed quiet… And I didn’t know what the silence was for or what would happen next.”

He’s quiet. Yeah… We’re definitely having conversations about the world and my world. But… For the most part He’s super still. He doesn’t have much to say other than, “Mirror me. Cultivate an environment of peace Amanda. Let My peace rest deep down inside of you.”

And I believe He’s looking deep into my heart more than anything right now. I believe He’s searching for the darkness that’s rooted deep down in there… He’s looking for the negativity, the gossip, the judgment, the ugliness that’s hiding in my soul.

His peace actually feels like a flashlight… One that’s probing around, demanding all darkness to filter to the surface so that it can be drawn out quickly.

And I don’t know if I’ve ever experienced THIS before… This intrusive, peaceful, deep cleaning of my soul. Usually He drags out the truth or the love to straighten me out… But this time, this time He going with the peace.

And it’s different. I don’t hate it. It’s actually a lot easier to embrace than truth and love because it’s so constant, still and eternally captivating.

And I don’t know if I’m making 100% sense. But I did want to share what’s happening inside of me right now. Because I hope you feel His peace too. I hope, in the midst of the chaos, confusion and calamity… I hope that His peace grabs a hold of your heart, filters through the nonsense and then gives you a sense of confidence to stand tall with a pure and faithful heart.

soul

It Is Good

Do you know what it’s like to go through things that are truly agonizing for the spirit and soul? Moments in life where you promise yourself that you will get through “this” and you WILL live to tell about “it?”

Yeah… I believe I’ve lived through so many of these moments. Moments of life that have completely broken my heart, forced me out into the great unknown and left me in a place of complete surrender and freedom.

But then… Well I also believe these moments are interesting because they can lose their shine after a while. Time passes and the experiences aren’t as fresh as they once were. Life balances out and you begin to breathe a grateful breath of fresh air again. And then you hope that life always stays like “this”… That you don’t have to face anymore heartache, agony and pain.

And I don’t know about you, but I think this is where I am right now… Living in a time where life isn’t heart-wrenching, agonizing and grey… But then it’s also not over-the-moon/my heart’s greatest desire fantastic… It’s just… Well, it’s just good.

And in this goodness is so much grace. Grace that reminds me that the past is in the past, and the future is still a mystery to be lived. But today… Today is good. 🌱❄️ #cultivatelife #justlive

 

challenge · heart · keep moving forward · soul · warfare

Quit… Today?

I thought about quitting today. I told God, “I can’t do this anymore.” Actually… I’ve been telling Him that for a few weeks now. “I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t want your stupid promises! It’s cost so much to get to this place! I don’t care about your will!”

You see my heart is deeply battling. And I want to walk away. I’d give anything to walk away. Walking away would be so much easier in this moment than moving forward.

But, in truth, it’s just my emotions… My feelings are trying to muddle what God, His promises and what He keeps telling me to do.

But when I step back… When I step back and breathe… When I step back long enough to hear His voice say, “I need you to keep moving forward.” Well… I know in my heart I have no other choice but to keep moving forward. 🌱 #cultivatelife #keepmovingforward