2025 is officially here. My soul feels a little bit of fear and trepidation about stepping even a toe-length into it.
Because I am vulnerable with everything I share, I’m honest when I say, “My soul would like to sit down and give up.” Not because I want to give up, but because I am just so dang tired of the resistance from the darkness.
Obviously, I’m not going to sit down and give up. I’ve come wayyyy too far to do something that insane. Giving up isn’t a real option. It just sounds semi-sane for my soul who keeps looking at my spirit like, “YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY INSANE. WE CANNOT KEEP GOING! THIS IS DANGEROUS, AMANDA. LOOK AROUND AT ALL OF THE THINGS WE STILL HAVE NOT ACCOMPLISHED AND DO NOT HAVE BECAUSE WE ARE FOLLOWING HOLY SPIRIT GOD KNOWS WHERE!”
But my spirit, who is very, very tapped into Holy Spirit and the plans of heaven, whips around and responds, “The things we ‘haven’t’ accomplished and ‘don’t have’ are from YOUR point of view. Look at the things we have accomplished from heaven’s point of view. They echo through the universe and eternity. Look up! Look higher! Get out of the lower realms and dimensions you’re in and cast your eyes on things that are above.”
It’s not easy for my soul. My soul has had an entire campaign waged against it to wear it down. The first nine months of 2024 had ease. Many of the things Bridge and I fought for in previous seasons and years really made the first nine months come forward without a lot of warfare at all. I was actually quite stunned by the ease. But then, leading into October, the campaign to tear my soul down began.
Several large situations mounted against us. I was fine with them at first. I didn’t understand them, but I was fine with navigating the warfare associated with them. Then, as October turned to November, I began to feel annoyed that there hadn’t been a resolution. By the time November turned to December, my entire being was angrier than I’ve been in a while. The amount of delay mounted against us persisted. Nothing was getting resolved. I continued to lean into Holy Spirit for revelation, direction, and discernment. I knew it was the only way through. I knew I needed more of an understanding of the darkness we were up against in the supernatural. I wanted to stand face-to-face with the principality(s) causing the delay.
After seeking and pressing very persistently, I received my answers and began to press Holy Spirit for answers as to how to navigate it. I started to realize the dark forces slowing us down and causing the delay had been at the root of past seasons, years, and chapters of life. I was relieved to have these very developed and pronounced answers, but my soul also felt like the answers were above my pay grade in understanding how to overcome them.
I turned to Holy Spirit for guidance again. He continued to remind me that my human spirit was not at all surprised by the dark forces pressing up against us. If anything, my human spirit was relieved I had tapped into the truth because my spirit was crafted to overcome the dark forces. So, I chose to hold the line Holy Spirit gave me.
It’s been very, very challenging to hold the line. It’s been very, very challenging to press forward. My soul has been very, very unhappy about so much of this. My soul is exhausted. My soul feels like this is unfair, but then it also understands it is responsible to overcome everything my being is up against.
I’m choosing to be the most vulnerable in this writing because I want you to understand that the things of God and Heaven are not cheap. They are costly. It cost a heavy price to bring forward what’s on God’s heart for our lives. We live in this very broken world that devalues the unseen realms and dimensions and all that is of true value and worth. We are so caught up with things that will never mean anything when our bodies are dead. The things of real value and worth, are eternal. Their price tag is the submission and obedience of our souls to Holy Spirit’s agenda.
Stepping into 2025, the confidence Holy Spirit has taken decades to cultivate in me, wants to be shaken and torn down so badly. I see the mountain of responsibility ahead. I see that it is overcome as I continue to partner with heaven and follow it through, but my God, it’s A LOT!
And while it is a lot, I am choosing to lace up my shoes and run hard into it. I am choosing to press harder into it than I’ve pressed into anything before. Because I can see what is being pulled down from the heights of the heavens above. I can see the glory of God breaking through the darkness as it exposes it and completely shatters its systems and structures. I can see the light coming forth. I can see that pressing and pushing is birthing it. So, my choice… My choice is to tell my soul every day (and sometimes throughout the day), “Alright, let’s get up and run! Let’s continue to have the courage and confidence to press hard when we need too. And let’s keep the consistent pace on the path Holy Spirit has placed us on.”
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