Over the past week or so my soul has been pushing me to cave and capitulate. I hear my thoughts. I feel my emotions. And they… They have decided that this jagged, uncomfortable path of stillness leading to God’s glory is just too much for them. Now, I truly do not want to get off… Continue reading Right Where I’m Supposed to Be
Deception called. The masses are answering. Manipulation stared us in the eyes. The droves are buying her “truth.” My soul feels heavy. It’s actually grieving. I feel like I’m watching my dad die all over again, but this time I’m deeply concerned about what will happen to the souls incased within each body. And I… Continue reading Deception Called
If deception called, would you pick up the phone and answer? If manipulation were to stare you in the eyes and claim to be “truth,” would you have the discernment to see THE truth? Deception and manipulation, at their highest levels, have been released. Do you see it? Can you feel it? Are you asking… Continue reading If Deception Calls, Will You Answer?
"Fit in... just fit in Amanda. Figure out how to fit in and then you'll be happy and confident and secure and complete!!" This has been a narrative I constantly play out in my head. It's been a narrative that's taken possession of every season and chapter of life I've ever entered and lived through...… Continue reading Square Peg, Round Hole
I've been coming to my grandmother's house on Cane River my entire life. It's a place that is 100% country, yet southern. While sitting on her porch yesterday I found myself very confused about a patch of trees. "Where did they come from? Did they grow over night? Why was I just now noticing them?"… Continue reading Timing of the Trees
Over the past week or so something has been troubling my heart. Nothing bad has happened, but all of a sudden I feel very distant from God... You see for almost a decade I feel as though I've been climbing this very, very tall, but bumpy mountain range. Now when I began my journey I… Continue reading Sky’s the Limit… Right?
From the window of mom's new house I sit in my bed and watch the river flow as the sun rises every morning. Some days it flows left. Other days it flows right. But then there are days when it's peaceful and still, reflecting the life around it. Now, I'm not sure what the river… Continue reading Year Four
If you've ever hiked a mountain before then you know the feeling that comes when you finally reach the top. In an instant all of the work it took to get there means nothing because you feel like you're on top of the world. And, in a lot of cases, you can see for miles… Continue reading Going Down
In the past few months I've heard it said at least 20 times now, "Well, hindsight is 20/20." And though I do believe that statement is true, I've grown to love the confusion and uncertainty built into life. Now, don't get me wrong... I don't like to be confused and uncertain; however, without the confusion… Continue reading When It’s Finally Over