Remember a few months ago when I said I was doing a lot of "off road following" with God?.. Well, guess what?... We're still "off road" and I honestly have no idea where I'm going... Plus, to make things a little bit riskier, my "New Year's resolution" is to not plan... To not think ahead… Continue reading Painless Days
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Sassy and Entitled
When I was 14 years old all I wanted was a pink iPod mini... I mean, Apple had just really started to become cool and I "needed" one... However, my parents didn't just buy us whatever we wanted when we wanted it... We'd almost always have to wait until a birthday or Christmas... So I… Continue reading Sassy and Entitled
Prideful Conditions…
You know those moments in life when you think, "Gosh I really should've listened to what I was told? If I had I won't be living with this pain now." Yeah... That's exactly what I'm thinking right now... In the past 72 hours we've experienced freezing weather, snow and ice... Well mom has been locked… Continue reading Prideful Conditions…
Death Halts Life….
Have you ever walked into a situation completely blind?... Believing in your mind you know the solution will be quick and simple, but then very quickly realizing, "This is going to take much more time and effort than I thought." That's been my year... A continuation of, "How much longer is this going to last?… Continue reading Death Halts Life….
Imaginary Life…
As God has continued to truly leave me somewhat stumped on where He's leading me, I've had to make a conscious effort to remain confident... Constantly feeling fear and insecurity about where He's led me, but then hearing His voice firmly and repeatedly say, "Be confident in ALL of my ways Amanda. ALL of them."… Continue reading Imaginary Life…
Needy Necklace…
When I turned 16 all I wanted was a digital camera for my birthday... They were new... They were exciting... Plus no one I knew really had one yet... So when I went to open my gifts on my birthday I was convinced my parents bought me one... As I prepared to open the last… Continue reading Needy Necklace…
Being You… Complex?
What's the biggest challenge of being you? Is it accepting yourself? Loving yourself? Or possibly just being confident in who you are? What happens when the biggest challenge within you is interchangeable with the person you are at your core? The very essence of you? For me... As Amanda Nicole.... My biggest challenge of being… Continue reading Being You… Complex?
Life on the Line…
I found myself sitting at the cemetery today... Why?... I went with mom to pick up the deeds for dad's plot and the plot she'll eventually be in... And I'm not sure why, but death always seems to put life into perspective for me... Whatever the case, the shortness of life on earth continues to… Continue reading Life on the Line…
Free and Ungrateful…
My heart has been searching for a solution... For an answer... For a sign... For anything God or the universe might give me to help me move forward in the season of life I'm in... Because I'm constantly questioning, "Why do I feel stuck? Why aren't things moving forward? Why are all of these seemingly… Continue reading Free and Ungrateful…
Angry with God?..
Anger... How do I trudge through it with peace in my heart?! I really don't know.. I definitely feel like I've been robbed of so much and that angers me... But more than anything anger is causing me to want to punch God in the face... And it's kind of funny... Because, in the past… Continue reading Angry with God?..