I got on the train this morning and couldn't help but find myself staring at the young man across from me.... Dressed from head to toe in some of the "best" brands and jewelry around. You could just tell he felt "cool" and "complete" because that's what those clothing brands stand for. But then I… Continue reading Dressed in Lies?
I'm convinced the most challenging part of being selfless is the reality that you gain virtually nothing from it. Sure there's some type of intangible lesson learned... But as far as tangible gain, it's not there. And that's where I am right now... Wrestling with God over this idea... Over this lifestyle of being selfless.… Continue reading Selfless Madness
"Fit in... just fit in Amanda. Figure out how to fit in and then you'll be happy and confident and secure and complete!!" This has been a narrative I constantly play out in my head. It's been a narrative that's taken possession of every season and chapter of life I've ever entered and lived through...… Continue reading Square Peg, Round Hole
I've been coming to my grandmother's house on Cane River my entire life. It's a place that is 100% country, yet southern. While sitting on her porch yesterday I found myself very confused about a patch of trees. "Where did they come from? Did they grow over night? Why was I just now noticing them?"… Continue reading Timing of the Trees
Over the past week or so something has been troubling my heart. Nothing bad has happened, but all of a sudden I feel very distant from God... You see for almost a decade I feel as though I've been climbing this very, very tall, but bumpy mountain range. Now when I began my journey I… Continue reading Sky’s the Limit… Right?
From the window of mom's new house I sit in my bed and watch the river flow as the sun rises every morning. Some days it flows left. Other days it flows right. But then there are days when it's peaceful and still, reflecting the life around it. Now, I'm not sure what the river… Continue reading Year Four
If you've ever hiked a mountain before then you know the feeling that comes when you finally reach the top. In an instant all of the work it took to get there means nothing because you feel like you're on top of the world. And, in a lot of cases, you can see for miles… Continue reading Going Down
In the past few months I've heard it said at least 20 times now, "Well, hindsight is 20/20." And though I do believe that statement is true, I've grown to love the confusion and uncertainty built into life. Now, don't get me wrong... I don't like to be confused and uncertain; however, without the confusion… Continue reading When It’s Finally Over
Another leap of faith with God is verbally in the books... From my mouth, to His ears... I'm gonna follow what seems crazy and strange again. Because I've chosen to leave doubt and fear right where they're at. And well... This leap means so much to me on so many levels of life. Mainly? Well… Continue reading Another Leap
It's funny.. The Lord has never failed me in what He's spoken to my heart, yet I still doubt what He says is to come. You see He has a pretty good track record of being right. Actually He's never wrong. He's always 100% correct when telling me what's to come. So why do I… Continue reading Doubtful Focus