For about a year now it seems as though God’s been emptying me of more... More fear. More idolatry. More selfishness. More hurt and pain. More of me. And to be completely honest with you, it’s been a challenge for me to let go of more without an understanding of “why?” I just keep questioning… Continue reading New Assignment
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Bloom
Refine. Develop. Mature. Grow... Refine. Develop. Mature. Grow. This has been the constant flow of my life a decade or more now. It's just been this constant reverberation from God to keep moving forward. To keep allowing Him to refine me. Develop me. Mature me. And grow me in all the areas He sees best… Continue reading Bloom
Inner Entail
New month… New season… New people… New places... New ideas... The past is gone and all is new now. I don’t know what is next exactly, but I do intend on following God with my entire heart. I feel a little bit afraid. Actually I’m caught between fear and faith… This place inside of me… Continue reading Inner Entail
Square Peg, Round Hole
"Fit in... just fit in Amanda. Figure out how to fit in and then you'll be happy and confident and secure and complete!!" This has been a narrative I constantly play out in my head. It's been a narrative that's taken possession of every season and chapter of life I've ever entered and lived through...… Continue reading Square Peg, Round Hole
Timing of the Trees
I've been coming to my grandmother's house on Cane River my entire life. It's a place that is 100% country, yet southern. While sitting on her porch yesterday I found myself very confused about a patch of trees. "Where did they come from? Did they grow over night? Why was I just now noticing them?"… Continue reading Timing of the Trees
Sky’s the Limit… Right?
Over the past week or so something has been troubling my heart. Nothing bad has happened, but all of a sudden I feel very distant from God... You see for almost a decade I feel as though I've been climbing this very, very tall, but bumpy mountain range. Now when I began my journey I… Continue reading Sky’s the Limit… Right?
Year Four
From the window of mom's new house I sit in my bed and watch the river flow as the sun rises every morning. Some days it flows left. Other days it flows right. But then there are days when it's peaceful and still, reflecting the life around it. Now, I'm not sure what the river… Continue reading Year Four
Going Down
If you've ever hiked a mountain before then you know the feeling that comes when you finally reach the top. In an instant all of the work it took to get there means nothing because you feel like you're on top of the world. And, in a lot of cases, you can see for miles… Continue reading Going Down
When It’s Finally Over
In the past few months I've heard it said at least 20 times now, "Well, hindsight is 20/20." And though I do believe that statement is true, I've grown to love the confusion and uncertainty built into life. Now, don't get me wrong... I don't like to be confused and uncertain; however, without the confusion… Continue reading When It’s Finally Over
Another Leap
Another leap of faith with God is verbally in the books... From my mouth, to His ears... I'm gonna follow what seems crazy and strange again. Because I've chosen to leave doubt and fear right where they're at. And well... This leap means so much to me on so many levels of life. Mainly? Well… Continue reading Another Leap