Six-and-a-half years ago my dad unexpectedly died. A month before he passed my parents had just celebrated their milestone 30th wedding anniversary. To celebrate, they planned to take a trip to Hawaii, but… Well obviously, that didn’t happen. Last week my mom turned 60-years-old. So, in true Winder Sister form and fashion, Bridget and I decided… Continue reading A Promise is A Promise
"But the disappointment God... It's SO heavy. I don't want to feel it anymore. I don't want to carry it anymore. Plus... Paired with the anger... The anger that's still consuming 10% of my heart... Well the anger really makes the disappointment feel all consuming at times." This is me. This is me working through… Continue reading For the Love of God
I had a dream about a month ago... I was standing in my living room and from the kitchen a dark figure was standing at my counter throwing knives, swords and other sharp objects at me. In the moment I didn’t know what to do.... So I reached my hand out and surprising caught each… Continue reading Sharp Objects
The unpaved path is rough. It’s lined with more obstacles, transition, pain, sacrifice and cultivation than I ever signed up for. I remember being a kid. I remember what I wanted in my heart. Then I remember the promises God gave me as I got older. I remember the words He spoke directly to my… Continue reading How Did I Become Her?
Unfortunately, it's been quite a challenge to accept God's love lately. I've just been so caught up in pain, anger, bitterness and sorrow. And, for a brief moment, I almost let them talk me into hardening my heart. You see... I could feel this wave of emotion and constant thought trying to push their way… Continue reading Jaded Heart?
Anger has been coursing through my veins lately... And while I do realize that the anger is only really harming me, I don't want to make peace with it. Instead, I keep hoping that it will eventually touch the person I'm angry with and make that person feel pain too. Life just feels so unfair… Continue reading End the Anger
I laid in bed the night before last and wanted to cry because I felt so weak... So emotional... So caught in the chaos and frustration of life. Now, don't get me wrong. Life is good. Life is very, very good. But... Sometimes I just want to cry. Sometimes I do cry. I cry about… Continue reading I Cry
From the window of mom's new house I sit in my bed and watch the river flow as the sun rises every morning. Some days it flows left. Other days it flows right. But then there are days when it's peaceful and still, reflecting the life around it. Now, I'm not sure what the river… Continue reading Year Four
If you've ever hiked a mountain before then you know the feeling that comes when you finally reach the top. In an instant all of the work it took to get there means nothing because you feel like you're on top of the world. And, in a lot of cases, you can see for miles… Continue reading Going Down
In the past few months I've heard it said at least 20 times now, "Well, hindsight is 20/20." And though I do believe that statement is true, I've grown to love the confusion and uncertainty built into life. Now, don't get me wrong... I don't like to be confused and uncertain; however, without the confusion… Continue reading When It’s Finally Over