Confidence · Mind · Spirit · truth

The Persevered Life

Perseverance. Oh gosh, I hate perseverance. Actually, that’s not true. I hate the initial feelings of perseverance. You know… The feelings that make you think, “I’ve come so very far. I am so very weary. And… I’ve still got miles upon miles to go.”

And, if I’m completely honest, choosing to persevere can be completely overwhelming and, at times, all consuming for the heart and soul. However, I’ve learned that there is a way to successfully press through without running yourself empty while doing so. 

Perseverance takes peace. Meaning we must be in divine alignment with the Holy Spirit and His will for our lives. Our entire being: spirit, soul, heart & body, must be completely about His love, joy and peace. We must be fixated on Him satisfying our every need.

Perseverance takes patience. I know… I know… Patience is one of my least favorite things because I am a person who loves to cut corners and take things into her own hands; however, I’ve learned that a lifestyle of patience follows a lifestyle of peace. Meaning, it’s a lot simpler to get where we’re going when we have peace undergirding our ability to wait.

Perseverance takes endurance. We have to be able to get up and go!! We have to answer the call no matter the challenge at hand! And sometimes the task at hand is extremely challenging, and so we’d rather cut a corner or skip it. And other times the task is extremely weighty… Meaning we must have a great capacity to carry it. Which is why it’s so important to be prepared to get up and go at all times, in all seasons of life.

Perseverance takes focus. Listen… If we are truly living life in the will of God, then we MUST keep our eyes on the page He’s given us. And… If He’s spoken something to us, we must hold on to what He’s said and not let it out of our sight. 

You see I say all of these things in this moment because I feel somewhat weary about things I’m choosing to continue to believe for… And, I feel slightly overwhelmed about the miles upon miles that I have left before I reach my destination.

So I need… Actually I have to remind myself of these things… Of these truths. I have to speak to my heart & soul and remind them that I need to pursue peace, remain patient, endure whatever is ahead and continue to stay locked in on the plans set before me… And, even if those plans shift course, I have to remain steadfast to them.

Why? Well because when it’s all said and done it will be worth it to finish. It will be worth it to reach the destination He’s pushing me towards.🌱🛡⚔️ #cultivatelife #keepmovingforward 

Spirit · truth

Don’t Stop. Do Wait.

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About two months ago I wrote about a spiritual mountain I didn’t want to climb. I explained that the mountain would require me to exercise more faith in God and His ways than ever before. I also shared that more faith required me to exchange more of my selfish, stubborn wants and ways for His path forward.

Well, I’m truly happy to report that the climb up is going VERY well.

You see with each step I take I am reminded of the truth that faith… Faith is a lifestyle.

To me faith isn’t simply believing in God and His Kingdom. Instead, it’s an action. It requires us to continuously and consistently step outside of our comfort zone to do the things He’s asked of us, even when we don’t see immediate results in the physical.

And sure, it’s very easy to do what works for us because we’re selfish, stubborn people who like the idea of having control over the situation; however, if we can’t fully follow through with where God is leading and be patient in the process, then we will most definitely become stagnant, frustrated and completely overwhelmed with “why” things aren’t “working out.”

And I guess I’m sharing this because I want to encourage you to keep moving forward in the things of God, but also to be very patient with His leading. A lifestyle of faithfulness doesn’t produce a harvest overnight, especially if He’s asking you to do big things for His Kingdom. Instead, it takes many, many moments of stepping out and stepping forward before we reach the destination He’s promised us.

So, if you feel like I have, please don’t stop, but do wait. 🌱 #cultivatelife

Spirit · truth

Wait-y

Patience… Patience is really, really, really challenging for me.

You see I’ve learned how to be patient with people and situations that are out of my control… But patience with God, myself and my own life…. Well that’s a completely different story.

You see I just don’t like to wait. Waiting… Well waiting seems SO boring and uneventful sometimes. And it doesn’t matter how many times God tells me to “wait” or “just be patient Amanda,” I still find myself complaining to Him like a small child who wants what I want NOW!

But I suppose I’m learning something while I wait. Because I see patience… I see the time that surrounds her is vital and good… And I guess… I guess it’s not so boring and uneventful if I seize this time to focus on other things while I wait.

Because one day… One day the waiting will be over. The waiting will be over and I just don’t want to look back and see that I wasted so much time complaining… Complaining rather than embracing what I have that’s so GOOD right NOW! 🌱 #cultivatelife #justlive

Mind · soul

Not Instant Gratification…

The woman I want to be… The woman I should be… Well she’s much more patient than I’ve been lately…

As so much curiousity over where I am in life swirls around in my mind… Well I believe I’m just learning another aspect of God…

It’s an aspect… A way of looking at what He’s promised…

A way that I’ve never truly wanted to or have known how to pay attention to before…

My grandmother used yo say, “just put it on a shelf”…

That was her way of holding onto the promises… The prophicies… The truths of what God has spoken… But what she had yet to see become a reality….

And in this crazy world we live in… Where almost everything is given to us instantly… Well I’ve forgotten that she taught me to put it on a shelf…

And when you’re 20… And then 25… And even now at 27… Well you’d think some of the things Gods shown me would have become a reality…

But I think I’ve finally come to a place of perspective…. A place that speaks more on the truth of God’s timing… And that says to me that… Well maybe God shows us things when were young… But maybe that doesn’t necessarily mean they’ll happen in a year… Or in 5 years… Or even in 10 years…

Because I’m finally realizing this mindset of instant gratification is so unrealistic… And completely unhealthy…

And that… Yes, yes sometimes God does things instantly… Or within months of each other…

But the kinds of things I’m talking about are more like “my life’s mission” type of scenrio… And for some reason I just keep thinking they’re going to play out now…

It almost feels like planning for my 50th birthday party… Only I’m in my twenties… And it doesn’t matter how much I plan now… Well I still have to live several decades before I reach 50….

So I believe that’s what’s happened here… Gods placed something in my heart… And being young… And living in an age of social media and immediate download… Well I’ve assumed it’s going to happen “now”… Or really, really soon…

But with age I continue to see that good things take time… Lots of time to grow and mature…

And so we are challenged with just being in the now… And loving the now… The present… Just loving it with all that’s in us…

And for me that’s actually a thing I hate…  Because I want to follow the “I can do anything I want… Be anywhere I want… And have anything I want instantly…”

But God… His systems… His ways… His Kingdom… Well that takes time for change to be enacted…

And as much as I don’t want to be ok with that piece of reality… Well I believe having peace with it will be helpful… And will encourage me to just live and experience whatever is next in all of its fullness…

Spirit

Waiting for the Bloom…

Why does it seem like… In the midst of seeing where my life is in this moment… In the midst of being in this moment where I have to grow… In the midst of knowing that I’ve chosen to follow what God says is best… Well why is it that I find myself trying so hard to distract myself from reality….

Reality being that growth isn’t always exciting… Yeah, sure… It’s great to look in the rear view mirror and see it in the past… Sometimes I wave at the past and think, “I’m glad that’s where you are!”…

But then there’s the reality of looking at what’s ahead… What’s right in front of my face… And the knowing that patience… So much patience is required to see something bloom…

It’s funny… I never purchase flowers with the intent of staring at them until they open up and reveal what’s on the inside…

So why is it that I choose to stare at my life like that…

Why do I choose to look at it… Study it with great intent… And try and figure out why I haven’t seen the beauty of what I know and believe can and will be on the inside…

No with flowers… With flowers I go about my day… I live life and enjoy the moment… And then when I least expect it I glance at the flowers… And all of a sudden they’ve opened up to reveal something marvelous…

And… Well I think that’s how I should be living right now… With the knowledge that this stage of life… Well that it hasn’t exactly bloomed yet… And it feels boring… And it seems monotonous…

But if I can just keep living… Keep living and stop looking around at everything else that’s already bloomed… Well then sooner or later life will have opened up for me too…

Spirit

Wandering with Stillness…

Emotions… They can be such a funny thing… A mixture that causes us to feel all sorts of ways at once…

That’s where I am right now… I feel peace in the place I am standing… But at the same time… Deep down… Well i recognize this unfamiliar feeling…

This feeling that my mind communicates as “oh you do not want to experience that feeling… It’s uncommon and unknown…”

Because I feel like in the midst of the peace… In the midst of the stillness… Well there’s this presence of wandering… And it’s a wandering that causes me to simply question, “well Amanda what are you going to do? How are you going to respond to your present?…”

And in a lot of ways wandering can seem negative, but I just don’t feel negativity coming off of this at all…

It’s more like preparation… Preparation that will provide the type of faith I will need in the next season… Really the next chapter of my life…

Because I feel as the world shifts and changes in all sorts of way… Well I feel that this faith is entirely and absolutely necessary…

And I also feel… That with a peaceful, still spirit, soul and mind… Well that it’s pretty simple to cultivate inside of me…

So as I enter this next chapter… This next place of my life… Well I welcome it with gratitude… Gratitude and excitement…

But most importantly… I welcome it with a state of peace and stillness…

Spirit

Waiting…

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Have you ever had to wait for something?… But you don’t really know what you’re waiting for?…

I feel like I am waiting on something… Like I cannot move forward in life until something happens… But I don’t know what that is…

And God feels distant from me right now…

Like I have the security of knowing, if I need him, he’ll be right there… And each time I speak to him he answers… But it’s very distant… Like he’s holding back for some reason… And I have no idea what that reason is…

So I suppose I’ll just wait… I’ll just sit back and wait for him to give me whatever I feel like he’s preparing…

And the preparation feels like he’s getting something ready… But he can’t give it to me jut yet…

And honestly… For me… This could be a challenge… To wait… To be patient… To know something good is coming… To feel it around me… But to not know what that something is…

But if I can’t learn how to just be… How to just wait for the weight of something great… Well then I can’t be the woman God is consistently shaping me to be…