heart · Spirit · truth

Radiate

I sat down to write something encouraging and inspiring about how it’s been 12 years since I reached my goal of losing 100 pounds. But… As soon as I started typing, my spirit took over and said, “We are writing something else!” So here we go… 

God is good. Even when life is dark, decrepit and unbearably challenging to forge a path through, He is good. And I know it can be challenging to see His goodness. Especially when life is constantly caving in all around; however, that’s what’s so impressive about Him. In the midst of our fear, worry, doubt, heartache and trouble, He is there to offer up a strong shoulder to lean on. He is there to listen to the deepest cry of our heart that says, “I don’t know how much longer this is going to last! I can’t take it anymore.” 

And I’m speaking of God’s goodness because I’ve come into a place over the past few months where I find myself sitting in the stillness of His reverential presence, just meditating on that goodness. 

I just can’t get enough of it. He’s just there in such a heavy way that I feel Him resting on me.

And the heaviness… It’s different than being trapped in demonic entanglements, grids and frequencies. It’s different than the exhausting after-effect of dismantling structures the kingdom of darkness once empowered and occupied. 

Yeah, this weight… This weight is light… I feel like my spirit is floating in a blinding cloud-like substance that is very over-powering. It fills the very depth of my spirit, and brings a flow of living-water to the very heart of my root system.

And in this place of heaviness, I am constantly reminded of victories. I’m reminded of where I was when I was 5 with asthma, but then experienced healing. I’m reminded of where I was when I was 17, yearning to experience God in a more transformative way and then I did! I’m reminded of who I was when I was 20, fresh off the path of losing that weight, searching for confidence, only to have someone come a long and push me. And then I remember when I was 25, watching my dad dramatically take his last breath. Certain I’d survive, but how? How would I heal? How would my family and I pick up the pieces and move forward without feeling forever shattered and lost? But here we are today… The Winder Women, powered up with the joy of Holy Spirit.

Honestly, I could go on and on about the victories. About the in places in me that were languishing, dead and dying, only to be transformed by the power of Holy Spirit and His ability to lead me straight into a cultivated life.

So, now, where I am going with all of this? Well, if you feel lost, dead and alone on the inside, please be encouraged to know that God is good. Yes, the world’s systems are a failing and chaotically destructive, but God, His Kingdom, His presence, His ways… They are good. He is good. And so, it’s very helpful to lean into His goodness and His grace, even when you feel like your world is going to implode in seconds. Because, eventually, eventually (if our heart is open) He will come in and fill the brokenness and the void with love, peace and joy.

But then, some of you might know this. Some of you might’ve even experienced it. So, for those that have… Please be encouraged to keep pursuing His presence. Remain in the stillness of it. Meditate on His goodness, and continue to allow your trans-dimensional human spirit to interface with His presence that rests on Zion. Because, I believe, the more we spend time in His presence, meditating on His goodness, the more we will find ourselves endowed with the ability to radiate that very presence. And the more we radiate His presence, the more we can share… And the more we share, the more we will see signs and wonders, miracles, healings and deliverance take place. 

But… It all starts with our heart’s desire to focus on the the goodness of God and remain still in His presence. 🌱

Spirit · truth

Instinctively Reverent

About two months ago I told God, “I want to understand what it means to have a reverent fear of You.” His initial response, “I am encoded in everything Amanda. Even Hell. Even Sheol and Hades. I am in every age, realm, dimension and timeline, past, present and future. I am stretched throughout all infinites and eternities. I am in it ALL. Embedded and encoded like DNA.” Then He said, “But… Just because I am encoded in everything, doesn’t mean that My presence is filling everything. Now, I can fill anything. My presence can fill Hell and Sheol.”

Now, when He said this my spirit, heart and soul were even more inquisitive. And so, I said, “Okay…. Show me an example of reverent fear then.” He said, “Remember your employer seven years ago? Remember the feeling you had when you met her for the first time?” 

Ohhhh well… Of course… Of course, I remember VERY well.

You see seven years ago, I went to work for a family with more wealth, fame and power than I’d ever encountered. Sure, I’d experienced my fair share of the three before; however, this… This was different. And its difference… It had a dominant feeling.

Now, my first encounter (really almost every encounter) with my boss left me somewhat shaken at my core. I remember instinctively feeling somewhat afraid of her. Not because she was scary, but because her very presence demanded a very, very high level of respect. It was evident that she expected nothing less than excellence in everything that went on in the culture of her home, her business and her lifestyle. 

And so, as her employee, I constantly felt like I should submit to the reality of what I felt. My desire to respect the environment of her household was very much something I wanted to succeed in daily. 

And… You know once I relived that chapter of my life, I could see it. I could see what God was communicating to me about reverent fear towards Him. I could see that He was saying, “The way you respected your previous boss and upheld the standard of her environment is very, very similar to the way you should respect Me and uphold the standard of My Kingdom.”

You see when we truly encounter Him in a raw, transparent and unfiltered way… When we truly become interfaced with His Kingdom through our covenant relationship with Jesus… When we truly begin to walk with Him and cultivate life… Then we can begin to experience the vastness of all that He has to offer. And when we begin to experience His vastness, it’s evidently clear that He possesses ENDLESS amounts of wealth, power and fame. It is clear that He possesses a standard of holiness that He asks us to live by.

And so… To reverentially fear Him is to truly experience Him…. To experience His Kingdom and feel overwhelmed by the majesty, splendor and glory of His presence.

And I don’t know about you, but I want to incessantly live from a place of reverence towards Him. I desire to respect the very culture of His Kingdom by upholding His standard of righteousness, justice and grace in all that I think, say and do. And sure, I won’t get it right every time (no one does); however, the beauty of it is, we can create an lifestyle that helps us cultivate the very nature of reverence. 🌱 #cultivatelife