business · kingdom · satisfied · surrender · trade

True Satisfaction

I’m still focused in on the concept of satisfaction and how I am to truly cultivate a lifestyle of it. 

And, in all of my mediation over the past few weeks, this is what’s becoming evidentiary clear to my heart and soul…

satisfied life is not a settled life. It’s not a life where you throw in the towel and hunker in with the mindset of following the culture. Instead… A satisfied life means you’ve fully surrendered (in joy) to the reality that God will provide you with the next piece of the puzzle when He knows you’re ready…. And, until then, you will work diligently with what He’s given you

And I wish I grasped this so long ago… Honestly, I do…. Because it would’ve saved me from so many set backs and sleepless nights where I tried to “figure it all out” with my soul’s rational thinking.

However, I am learning that I must live from a place where I am satisfied in ALL aspects of life… Which includes where He’s leading my sister and me with Cultivate Life & Bridget Winder Art.

You see for years we’ve chosen to let Him lead us in making decisions that are big and small. And though His lead doesn’t usually make logical, 3D sense, my spirit knows and understands it to be the best choice because it is the most fulfilling one.

You see His choices offer a clean and sturdy foundation where fear of money, fear of man, jealousy, pride, envy and bitterness cannot exist. His path makes sure I don’t sew seeds of manipulation and deception into the fertile soil of all He is aiming to cultivate.

And I guess what I’m trying to say is this… God’s plans and purposes for leading me in business are much larger than I ever anticipated because they exist in realms and dimensions far deeper, wider and thorougher than I ever fathomed. And, although I’ve been learning I need to be satisfied with the things of Him, I never considered how that satisfaction would need to echo into every aspect of my life…. So much so that my spirit would be required to transcribe that satisfaction onto a scroll for my soul to pick up, read and follow.

And with that… Well I firmly see that being satisfied must leak into my professional life… I must become satisfied with the way in which He’s taught me to do business and build companies for His Kingdom. I must rest on the truth that He’s provided me with everything I need in this present moment… And when more is needed, in all facets, He will supply.🌱 #cultivatelife 

challenge · focus · freedom · healing · satisfied

Satisfied?

Last week I shared how vital it’s been for me to “capacitate in life.

But… You know… I was kind of vague when speaking about capacity because I didn’t really delve into the areas inside of me that are being pressed to the limit.

So here we go…

Being specific about where I’m growing with God right now seems slightly chaotic. I mean… He is stretching me in so many different areas. However, the place that feels most pressing to share with you is an area I am aiming to master.

You see it’s a challenge for me to be satisfied with the things of God.

And, because I feel challenged in this area, I’ve asked Him to help me. Which usually entails a breakdown… I need some understanding and application from Him about HOW I am to be satisfied with Him and only Him.

And guess what He told me?… He said, “Amanda, I just need your entire focus. I give you what you need daily. Every Single Day I provide you with what you need to live in peace and harmony, but you choose… You choose to allow your heart and soul to gaze on other things. To become consumed with things that have nothing to truly do with where I am leading you. And so, you struggle in your heart and soul. You flip back and forth. Questioning me. And why? I have given you what you need. You have leaned into your inheritance in Me and I have provided for you. So why… Why are you looking at things that are less than what I’ve given you?”

Now I know what you might be thinking… “Well He really told you.” And, you’re right… He did. He does. That’s how my relationship with Him is. He’s the father and friend that drops the hammer and pushes me back into line so I can develop, mature and grow properly.

He’s the one that says, “Umm, I’ve healed you from the inside out and set you free of demons, darkness, death and decay. I’ve refined you and matured you. I’ve opened up entire realms and dimensions of life for you as you’ve pursued Me and My ways. So why… Why do you allow yourself to become focused on material, insignificant matters of life? Why don’t you keep yourself: spirit, soul, heart and body directly focused on Me and My Kingdom? Because when you do, you will continue to find yourself satisfied with all that you’ll ever need in life.”

And He’s right. He’s 100% honest in what He’s saying. And I can’t think of an excuse that’s good enough to object Him.

And, because I can’t find anything worthy enough to object Him, I have to also accept the rest of what He’s said. Which is, “Amanda, you are acutely aware of the nonsense that plays out in society. You see how your culture buys into every selfish want and desire, in an aim to fulfill their souls inward need to feel like they are achieving ‘life.’ But that satisfaction of ‘life’ can only really truly be found within Me and my Kingdom. You must keep choosing it. Time and time again.”

And so I will. I am. I am making a conscious effort to keep my soul quiet as my spirit aims to expand and focus intently on where He’s leading. And I hope, I truly hope you will also become fully satisfied in Him. That you will see life through the eyes of your spirit, and really delve into all that there is to be satisfied with. 🌱 ♥️ #cultivatelife

 

 

develop · refine · soul · vulnerability

Right Where I am…

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do you ever wonder what the next stop is?… what the next little growing season will be in between reaching a goal?… sometimes i wonder this god… sometimes i wonder if i am doing everything i should be doing to the best of my ability…
i look to my right and see a pile of christmas cards i need to and want to write and then i feel bad because i haven’t started them and i’ve been just relaxing and chilling and doing what i want to do for the past few days…. i’ve been home since late sunday night and all i’ve done is engaged in things i want to do…. so, is that so bad?…
and then i hear you ask “well… are you enjoying yourself?”… and of course i am… i am because i’ve been able to just relax and be… i feel like i’m finally coming to a place of peace… life around me doesn’t stress me out much anymore… and i am so much more willing to go with the flow than i’ve ever been…
it’s funny to compare life to a year ago god… i was miserable this time last year… i couldn’t and wouldn’t let go of the jealousy, pride and bitterness… it had all set in so quickly… and i just watched it as it took hold of my life… and i was frozen in fear… and i couldn’t get out of the place i was in for anything… the best thing for me to do in that moment was pick up my life and move it across the country…. in hopes and search and with faith that soemthing greater was waiting fo me here…
and i believe that it’s true… that it was… that in that moment i made the best decision for my life… and i look around and realize that it was the best decision for me… and then i look at others and want to compare myself so much…. look at all the things i’m not doing…
but then i have to remind myself that this life is not about cmparing apples to oranges…. it’s not about what others are doing versus what i am doing…. more so it’s about if i’m enjoying the life you have given me… and i believe that i am….
i believe that i am enjoying my life more and more everyday…. and when i feel myself comparing myself…. well i just have to remind myself how dumb it all is… because if i am truly happy…. which i believe that i am… then what i see shouldn’t matter… unless for some reason i think it’s going to help me enjoy life more… and then i realize that comparing myself causes me to enjoy life less…
and i guess what i am trying to tell myself more than anything is that i’m alright right where i am… and that i should continue to live and love and learn right here in the present moment… because this moment has so much to offer and enjoy…
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Peace: Confident Yet Satisfied

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I had a thought yesterday that went something like this….

If someone offered me a million dollars to change myself… To stop being dramatic and just let life and the things that are inside of it go… Would I do it…

The pay off would be the money… The incentive would be the money…

But as I started thinking about it more I realized it’s a much greater trade off to gain peace… Rather than a million dollars…

And I say all of this because I feel like cultivating a heart of peace is a challenge for me….

So far… When I look at peace… I see that it is quiet and still… It doesn’t have to have a lot going on… It’s confident and secure with what it’s doing in the moment… Even if that security is based in the fact that it doesn’t know what’s coming next…

I feel like peace is confident in the unknown…. Its confident in the unknown and satisfied with the present…

And that’s what I’m aiming to cultivate right now… A peaceful heart and mind… One that is confident in the unknown and satisfied with the present… One that can just be…. That can be in a moment and not feel pressured by the outside world around me…

The outside world that constantly tells me I need to be doing a million and one things… That I need to be comparing myself to others through social media… And that I’m not doing enough…

If I could simply look at the inside world… The one going on on the inside of me… It’s calm… It’s collected… It’s still…

So that’s my focus… It’s my aim… To continue to cultivate the peace inside of me and then carry it with me… And to focus on it when I feel overwhelmed by the unknown and unsatisfied with the present….

And maybe it’s easier said than done… And I probably don’t look at where I’ve been and how far my story has taken me enough…. But I know that once I learn to just live in peace… Well life will continue to stay balanced and even… And I’m ok with that..