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Expansion

I told my mom what God told me about blooming. She, who is always wiser than me, said, “Amanda, I know you’re excited, but remember this is going to be a PROCESS. Just like all of the growth you’ve experienced, blooming will take time. A bud doesn’t open overnight. It takes time to expand as it reveals the colorful world inside.”

You know… She’s absolutely right!

While most growth is painful, blooming is not. BUT it does require expansion. Which, like my mom said, takes TIME.

And if you know me, I get caught up with the time things take to get to where they need to be. Sure, I’ve gotten better over the years, but for the most part I still want things to happen faster than they do.

Blame it on our culture that’s centered on instant gratification I guess.

But in really, I’m not up for playing the blame game. I’m more into learning about the expansion process of the bloom!

It’s interesting too. It seems like all of a sudden timing is right. Timing is good. Timing is in season. So many pieces and parts I’ve hoped and prayed would come together are TRULY coming together.

And though there’s a place in me that’s nervous all the pieces coming together might separate again, I’m choosing to stay uplifted. I’m choosing to be strong in my mind, in my heart and in spirit. Because I believe it’s enough as life continues to expand and bloom.

Confidence · Spirit

Kingdom Timing…

┬áThe word timing is a word I’ve heard my entire life…

It’s been expressed in different ways… But I feel like the way it’s been stressed to me the most is “God’s timing…”

Those two words together have always caused curiosity to bubble up inside of me… Because… Well I’ve never understood them…

And honestly, well… I still don’t understand them…

But I do see… As I gain a clear preception of who I am as a daughter of God… Well I see that timing is key…

For years there have been things I’ve wanted… That I’ve literally dreamed about and hoped for… That I’ve chased after with curiosity and a sort of passion…

And sometimes I believed I was crazy for wanting them all… But then I always believed that they could become a reality…

And then I would constantly hear, “It’s not time. In God’s time..” Even my dreams consisted of phrases that included the words timing…

And so somewhere… In the span of the last two years… Well I’ve become lost in the moment… I’ve become so wrapped up in each and every moment… And their passing… I’ve been fulfilled with how pregnant with life they’ve been… And in so many ways, well I’ve forgotten about dreams and the timing of God..

Now… Now here I stand… And I am simply amazed by God… About how wonderful He is…

Because… As I choose to change my preception of life… Well I’m realizing that God’s timing is like that of a Kingdom…

And my Father in Heaven could not give me what He wanted to before… I was not yet mature enough… Or fit enough to handle certain responsibilities…

Sure, like all royalty, the crown belongs to the Sons and Daughters of the King… But responsibility… Well that’s a completely different story…

And I’m seeing that the responsibility of the crown cannot be passed down until the children are completely ready… Until the King sees them fit enough…

Yes… All good things are coming from the Father… But the timing of what they actually want… What I’ve actually wanted… Well it hasn’t been time…

And until recently… Well it hasn’t been time…

So more and more I find myself encouraged to continue to gain a clear, clear perspective of the Kingdom I’ve been born into… Of my right to be a daughter of the King…

And I believe in that… Well… It will continue to encourage me to just be… To just be who I am… And the trust that the timing is near… As I just live…