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My Valuable Past

Have you ever been in a moment in life where you’ve had to put something valuable to rest? It may be a person, a place or a thing… But the reality is that you have to let go of it with the idea that you may never cross paths with it again.

You see a few years ago I had to do this… I had to let go of some valuable people in my life. I had to completely empty my hands so I could pick up my next assignment.

And honestly, it wasn’t very easy to let go of these people because they helped shape my life in such a pivotal way. But… God asked me to let go of them. So, I did. I walked away with a grateful heart and my head held high, knowing I had completed His task and grown in ways I never imagined.

So it feels kind of strange to be in this moment today. A moment where someone I held dear has been placed back into my life.

And I don’t know what the purpose behind all of it is. God doesn’t always include me in the details… but I do know that life has changed and here I am with this person in my life again.

And, well I just feel grateful and encouraged. Grateful that my past has reconnected with my present, and encouraged to live a lifestyle of letting go of valuable things God says to let go of.

So if you’re in this place where you need to let go of something… Then please, please be encouraged to let go of the valuable things in your hands. It might feel challenging, and you might wonder how you’ll move forward next… But I promise He has a plan and a way. And… you never know, that valuable person, place or thing could make it’s way back into you one day. ☺️💃🏻 #cultivatelife

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Searching for the Diamond…

Several nights ago I had a dream… In the dream I slid face first down a giant slide… On the way down, my diamond necklace got caught in a crack on the slide… When I reached the bottom, I discovered my diamond was missing… Only the chain and backing that held the diamond remained… And so… I searched frantically for the diamond…

Of course… After a moment of sheer panic I found it… It was super easy to find too… Right underneath the slide I just came flying down…

But that moment in the middle… That moment where I choose “emergency panic mode”… Well in that moment… I was full of fear… And the fear told me, “This is going to be so difficult to find.. That diamond is so precious to you… How will you ever find it?…”

But then… Well once I found it… Everyone in the dream kind of laughed at me for making such a big deal out of nothing… That it was so simple to just “find” it…

And… In this moment… Well this is where my life seems to be…

I feel like over the course of the last few months I’ve taken a ride down a slide… And now I am at the bottom of the slide… Realizing something of value is missing… That I had it before… But somehow it got caught between the cracks in life…

And now… Well… Just like in the dream I am frantically searching for it… With a mindset that says, “This is so difficult… How will I ever find it?”…

And the thing… The diamond I seem to be searching for is the love of God… My relationship with God the Father… The one who is full of just grace and love…

And this moment feels altogether awful… Because my mind has made it so difficult to find Him and His love…

But… Like in the dream… Well I’m realizing that I won’t find what I am looking for when I am full of fear… Instead… Well I need to make a choice… I need to choose peace… And I need to realize panicking never really helps anything…  It really just clutters the mind…

But… Real, high-quality love… The type that I am searching for… Well it’s found in a peaceful place…

And though my mind is telling me a million negative things right now… Mostly lies about myself… Well I am sure that this… This love that I am searching for will tell me billions, if not trillions, of positive things…

Because that’s who Father God is… His real, authentic love says, “I’ll always be here for you when you need me… I’ll always be a father to you through it all… I’ll forgive you when it seems unforgivable… And I’ll even forget what you did in the past… Plus, I’ve placed so much potential inside of you and I am so eager to see it come out”

And though my mind wants to tell me differently… I believe simply accepting His love… Well it’s enough…

It’s enough to stop panicking, see the diamond on the floor and to then pick it up and take it as my own again…

 

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The Valuable Lost…

IMG_7548Last week I lost five things… On four separate occasions… And I don’t ever loose things… Especially what’s of value to me…

So I decided to ask myself “what can I learn from this situation?”…

Four of the things I lost were jewelry related… An earring… An expensive earring back… Two necklaces…

And then I lost my running earbuds…

If you know me well… You know that jewelry and exercise are of value to me… They are part of my everyday lifestyle…

The great thing about loosing each valuable thing… I didn’t panic… Well… Maybe I did panic when my new necklace went missing… But other than that I believed I would find them…

And… Sure enough… Throughout the course of each day… I found something of value that was lost…

And… Now… Now I have all of my valuable things again…

So… What’s the point?… I believe that God was trying to show me… Even when I believe some areas… Some things… Some people are lost cases… That it’s a dead end… Well it’s not… All we simply have to do is believe that that of value will be found…

If you’re anything like me… You might panic or search endlessly until you find that missing “thing”… But that’s what was so amazing about my missing pieces of value… I didn’t really search for them at all… I just knew deep down I’d find them when the time was good…

And I believe that’s part of just living… Because when we choose to just step back and live a genuine life that says, “I not going to freak out… I not going to allow my attitude to affect my moments”… Well wonderful things happen…

We find ourselves believing and trusting that that which is lost will be found… And we can live without an anxious heart and mind… We can truly live with a peace heart…